LOVE YOURSELF: SECOND CHANCE FOR LOVE

CHAPTER TWENTY

He began to type a text.
- should I?
He said lifting his eyes to the sky, he stared at the stars when he saw one of them blinking brighter than the others, he took this as a sign.

* hey there, is me Namjoon, I was just wondering if you made it home safely?, I enjoyed our conversation today, I look forward to it again.
He sat down looking to the sky, propping his legs on the rail.
- ah, what a beautiful night?
He closed his eyes briefly when he felt his phone vibrate.
- oh.
He said reaching for it.
* ah, hey Namjoon, yes I made it home safely, Jackson doesn't shut up about the fact that we had coffee, he is rooting for us to be a couple he already made up a ship name Hanjoon *

He smiled brightly.
* aigoo this man, I apologize for being the way he is *
* is ok, he is my roommate after all so I know how he is I promise, anyway I had a great time as well, we will have the chance to have other conversations soon.
* I will look forward to that.
* me too, good night Namjoon.
* Good night Haneul.

He smiled to himself leaning back on the chair.
- I don't know what this is but I like it.
After a while he went back inside to find the boys in the same position he left them, he saw an empty couch calling his name, before laying down he changed into something more comfortable, he threw some basketball shorts on and a tank top.
He lay down reaching for a blanket that was folded on the arm of the sofa.
Soon enough he fell asleep.

Few weeks later Namjoon was really pleased with the way the little one was adapting at school.
But that was about to be put to brief stop.
He was on his way to pick her up, he had been a little stressed out with work, so Yoongi had offered to help him if he need it, so they agreed to meet at Namjoon's house after he picked the little one up from school.
He walked up to the classroom to find Haneul at a table trying to comfort little y/n, Namjoon's heart shattered into million pieces when he saw his princess crying.
- y/n. papa is here.
He walked towards her in a heartbeat.
- princess what's the matter, why are you crying?
He knelt in front of her.
- papa.
She said as the tears streamed down her rosy flushed cheeks.
She jumped off the chair into his embrace, burying her face in his shoulder, she was sobbing buckets.
- what happened?
He said lifting his eyes to meet Haneul.
- well you know how kids are sometimes they ask the wrong things, some comments are made without a thinking the kind of damage that it can cause to another kid.
- what do you mean miss Park?
- a little boy was picked up by his mother, he was playing with little y/n, she asked him who the lady was, of course he told her that was his mom, he asked her where her mom was?
- is ok, don't tell me anymore I know, I understand what happened, I know is not the little boy's fault is mine, thanks for everything I'll take her home now, I guess that time is finally here wether I like it or not.
He said standing up with her in arms,
- I promise I will answer any question that you might have as soon as we get to the house.
She nodded as she sat in the car.
He sent a text of SOS to the others.
Jungkook and Areum jumped in their car in a heartbeat.
Yoongi was already at Namjoon's house waiting when he sent the text.
- damn that day is here, I hope we are ready because Namjoon cannot be alone in this.
He saw Namjoon's car pulling up, his heart shrugged.
Jungkook pulled up right behind him.
He got out of the car at the speed of light.
- hyeong?
He said as Namjoon got out of the car, he looked at him with teary eyes shaking his head.
- is time Jungkookah.
Jungkook's eyes almost popped out of their sockets because he knew what he was referring to, Jungkook moved around the car opening her door.
- princess?
He called, her head was down, she lifted her head.
- Kookie.
She said with her teary eyes.
- I'm here princess.
He lifted her wrapping her in his arms.
- we are here.
Yoongi said from behind Jungkook rubbing her back.
Areum held onto Namjoon's arm, comforting him as they made the way inside the house.
Jungkook sat on the sofa placing her on his lap.
- hey princess I need to ask you something.
- yes Kookie.
- will you always love papa?
- of course I will always love papa, he is my papa.
- good girl, now go on with him, me, auntie and Yoongi will be here with you.

She got off Jungkook's lap, walking towards her father who picked her up placing her on his lap.
- ok baby girl ask me anything you would like to know.

- why don't I have an momma like the other kids in my school?
There it was that question that Namjoon has been threading since she was born.
- you do have an momma baby girl.
- I do, where is she?
- she is in heaven.
- heaven where is that, can we go see her?
- heaven is very far away baby girl, unfortunately no we can't go see her.
- why not, doesn't she love me papa?
- - she loves you very much princess.
- why is she not here with me?
- because she is dead princess?
- what is that papa?
- it means that she can't move, talk or do any of the things that me and you can do.
- is she hurt?!
Little y/n felt sad, angry at that moment, she didn't know what to do.
- no she is not hurt princess, she is in a beautiful place full of rainbows, clouds, castles.
- are we going there?
- eventually, every human being goes there.
- how did she go there papa?
- well when you were born, she had to go there so you could be here with us.
- is it my fault?
- no princess it would never be your fault, bad things happened to momma before papa met her, that cause damage to her body, so she decided that it was more important for you to be here with me, that's why she decided to leave.
- papa, I don't know what she looks like, is she pretty?
- the most beautiful, selfless woman I have ever met.
- do you have a picture?
Before Namjoon could say anything Jungkook spoke up.
- I do hyeong.
Jungkook said bringing his phone out.
- can I show her hyeong?
- of course Jungkook, please.
Namjoon said with a smile.
Jungkook stood up walking to their side, he showed her the picture.

It was from the night he first met her at the cafe, Namjoon had invited him drink coffee with his mom and Y/
- woah Kookie my mom is really pretty.
She said with tears in her eyes.
- yes little one the most beautiful, just like auntie Areum, auntie Chung Ha and auntie Solar, they are all queens but you are the princess.
Jungkook said with a smile.
- I want you to know that papa took good care of momma while she was with us. He treated her like a queen.
- really papa?
Namjoon nodded.
- papa, is the best.
- yes he is.
Yoongi said from the couch straight across.
- stop I'm not if I was maybe she would still be here with us.
Yoongi shook his head.
- then she wouldn't be.
He said pointing at the little one.
- so that means I can never have an momma.
- no, you will papa will find you one.
Areum said quickly making Namjoon turn his head towards her.
- can momma be like miss Park please papa?
Jungkook let out a chuckle.