LOVE YOURSELF: SECOND CHANCE FOR LOVE

CHAPTER FOURTY SIX

After a while she came out with a bag, he stare at her as she walked through the living room.
- so you are just going to leave without telling me what made you this upset, how can I fix it so I can help you feel better?
- I'm fine Namjoon, why are you making a big deal out of something that is not a big of a deal?
- fine love, thanks for taking care of the little one while I was gone, I won't put you through this again, the next time I have to travel out of the country I will just ask Jungkook to watch over her, or my parents, so you don't have to leave your place for so long.
- you are getting it all wrong Joon.
She said with frustration.
- well, how about you tell me what's right because I honestly don't know why are you like this Haneul? is frustrating trying to figure you out, I never had so much trouble trying to understand a woman, I just let little y/n's mother have her way, because it wasn't in my heart to argue with her after what she went through for 3 years, I don't know if I'm too nice or I just don't have any back bone.
- that's; what you think, this has nothing to do with you for heaven's sake.
- well, what the hell is it?
He said pulling his hair, Haneul let out a sigh of exasperation.
He stood up from the chair walking towards her, she followed his every step until he was standing in front of her, she found his dark eyes, all that y/n found was pain stamped in them, his face was blank, but his eyes said everything.
- I don't know how to be in a normal relationship love, I loved the little one's mother with my very being, but she never had to tell me anything because I knew what she was going through with just looking in her eyes, from the first night I found her, I learned to read her emotions, her movements, I basically did everything in my power to make her happy, that was my mission while she was alive, but with you is an enigma, a maze that I have to figure out, like a book that I want to know how it ends but I have to wait until I finish reading every page.
His hands were shaking as he brought them to her face, keeping her still so she could look at him.
- I want to make you happy not because is my mission in life, I want to make you happy because you deserve it, you deserve to be treated like the queen you are, because I love you, the passion you ignited in my heart grows hotter every day, I keeps me warm, but days like this you are like the rain that tries to put that fire out, so I won't let you push me away, I want to go through this kind of trials together, like the couple we are, I know I'm not easy to deal with but for you and our little one I'll do anything.
Haneul's heart began to beat faster.
- I'm scared.
She whispered.
Namjoon's eyes teared up at the confession.
His instinct was to pulled her towards him, pressed against his chest, he wrapped his long limbs around her.
Her arms were still by her sides.
She felt it finally, Namjoon was home, his body was toned and hard, but he was the softest warmest man she had ever met.
- love, hold me please.
He begged, she buried her face in his neck bringing her arms around his waist.
- tell me, why are you scared?, I promise that I'll make it better, you don't have to fear, I'm here to protect you against anyone and anything I assure you.
She tightened her hold.
- I am afraid that because of me the little one could get hurt.
Namjoon's body tensed up when he heard her words.
He pulled back slightly to look at her.
- why would you say something like that?
His eyebrows furrowed.
- the moment I saw Hoseok, I didn't fear for myself getting hurt, I feared for her getting hurt, my whole body was ready to do whatever I had to do to keep her safe, I didn't want him to even look at her, that's how I felt.

Namjoon felt his heart growing with love by the way she loves his daughter, he didn't have any doubt that he picked the right woman to love, to be a mother for his little one.
- I have no shadow of doubt that my daughter could not be in better hands than yours, that's the reason I left on my trip leaving her with you, I left having a piece of mind, I felt the same way I feel when I leave her with one of her uncles or my parents.
- really?
He nodded.
- yes, I fell in love with the right woman, I want to grow old with you, have more kids in a not too far future, please do not worry, I'll make sure that pure excuse of a man don't come close to you again, don't be afraid.
He said placing a chaste kiss on her forehead.
He hugged her once more.
- I'm so happy I met you Joonie.
She breathed taking in his sweet scent, her hands dragged across his back.
- let me take you home then.
- I don't want to go home...
She mumbled against his neck.
- but I thought you said that...
She cut his words kissing him.
- I know what I said, I was trying to make myself leave because I want you two to be safe, I think me being here puts you in danger.
- please love don't talk nonsense.
His arms travel down to her waist picking her up, their bodies fused in a warm hug.
- I want you here all the time, with me, with us, I want us to be the family I have always dreamed of love, I know little y/n wants that too.
- you want me to move in with you?
- yes I do, I want to wake up besides you every morning, I want to sleep feeling the warmth of your skin against mine, your hands in my hair, I want to come home to find you playing with y/n. I want to come home to find you naked in my shower after a long day at work, so I can release the stress of the day with you in the shower, I want to love you for the rest of my life and give you the whole universe, put the entire world at your feet, just give myself to you completely.
- Kim Namjoon!!
She couldn't believe his words, her shaky hands ran over his blue locks, he had colored it while he was working in the states, he wasn't fond of it at the beginning but once he saw the finished product he fell in love with it, it was almost the same color he had in Fire era but with a better haircut, she just deepened her fingers in between the strands of his soft hair, tears pooled up in her eyes, he was the one of the best things that happened in her life, right when she thought that she was destined to be alone forever, because she was a magnet for trash men, that have made her suffer, she wasn't looking for a relationship, but destiny took her to Jackson's pub that night.
- I can't believe you are real Kim Namjoon, well I know you are real because I have been following your career since Bts debuted, what I can't assimilate is the kind of man you are, not only you but all of the other boys too, your kind is in danger of extinction, the kind of father you are to that beautiful little girl, words cannot express how I feel about you two, how happy I am that you allowed me to be part of your family.
She said leaning her head in his broad shoulder, he was still carrying her, his hand placed in the back of her thigh, bringing them up, she took the hint lifting both legs she wrapped them around his waist, he moved back sitting on the sofa's arm rest, his hand running through her hair.