So Close

Chapter 20

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New chapter, i hope its long, anyway, please enjoy and let me know what you think.

This chapter is dedicated to a gorgeous reader who sees herself in my characters and maybe even will find some council in the next few chapters.

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“Hey there girlie.” Charlie greeted me the next morning. The knowledge that both Liam and Sky wouldn’t speak to me today was playing my mind. In the midst of loosing two of my best friends, I almost forgot about loosing Niall. Almost, but I wasn’t that lucky.

My brain wouldn’t stand still, I would be worrying about Liam when I would feel guilty for not freaking out about Sky then I would slap myself for not obsessing over Niall. It would go round and round, not staying on any particular thought for longer than a minute before racing off to the next friend I had wronged.

His face was still playing on my mind, that and the thought of him and Kim together. It was physically draining to even go any further than the immense longing I had felt towards him so I attempted to not go into it any more than that. How had I not realised before now how I felt?

As they say, you don’t know a good thing till it’s gone. I hadn’t known how great a relationship I had with Niall until it was gone. We had experienced two almost kisses, both pushing m slightly further to the realisation I had made on the night of the party. The realisation I had made, just slightly too late.

If you combine heartbreak with a side of home wrecker with some best friend loss like a cherry on top, you get the perfect analogy for my life. I hurt everyone I touch. I hurt Niall, I hurt Harry and Sky and then in extension I hurt Liam and in some way Louis.

How had I managed to turn the world against me in the space of two weeks?

“Ali?” Charlie questioned worryingly by my side.

“Oh yeah, sorry Charlie what were you saying?” I said, forcing a smile on my face and turning to him.

“I was just saying that I thought you looked gorgeous today.” He said and I narrowed my eyes at him.

“Oh, thanks Charlie.” I said and continued walking.

Was Charlie flirting with me? That was the last thing I needed right now, on top of everything. Boys have ignored me for 16 years and then they all seem to be interested when I simply can’t mirror the feelings.

It wasn’t that Charlie was ugly, mean or stupid, in fact, he was the polar opposite to those things. He was witty, kind, funny, gorgeous, sweet and sexy, he was the perfect guy. Yet I was head over heels in love with someone who was ignoring me, and macking on with my best friend’s boyfriend. I was making the wrong decision at every turn and I would be a fool if I chose to flirt with Charlie. It would just be another bad call to add to the list.

The last thing I needed was for Charlie to like me.

“Hey, I need to talk to you about something.” Charlie said and I turned my head to face him, smiling wearily.

Please don’t let this be what I think it is.

“Yeah?” I offered, not wanting to hear anything apart from friendship exit his mouth.