So Close

Chapter 18

Dedicated to someone that just generally seems really lovely. :) xx

RECAP

I ran a finger over my bruised and assaulted lips. The kiss meant nothing to me except to strengthen my desire for Niall and I to be together.

“I-I-I don’t know what happened, like, what did..” He rambled as his hands ran through his hair before they planted over his eyes and his breathing became laboured.

“Fuck Harry, what have we done?”

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“He… cheated on me. Well, not in that way but, it still hurts, you know?” Sky whipered, obviously still in shock.

What a cruel trick of fate to have m usually preppy and confident Sky confide in me and completely break down. The significance was that the person Harry had cheated with was me and she obviously wasn’t aware that I was involved in his infidelity.

“I know babe.” I said, rubbing her back. I tried to distance myself from the guilt that was knowing at my lips, begging me to tell her the truth. I couldn’t though, it was too difficult.

The selfishness of my decision hit me like a train, almost pushing the syllables out of my mouth, almost, not quite.

“I just loved him so much and it sounds stupid but this is hurting me so badly. I thought he was devoted but he took all of the “I love you”s he had let slip off his tongue and shoved the same tongue into another girls throught.” Sky said, tears falling down her cheeks as I began to well up as well.

“Thanks for letting me come over.” She mumbled as she stared at her hands, playing with a racelet that Harry had given her for her birthday. Her perfectly manicured nails and long, delicate fingers seemed to be the only thing that was holding together as she turned into a weeping mess in my bedroom.

“I am so sorry Sky.” I choked out, my confession on the tip of my tongue. She looked up slightly confused as to why I had fat tears rolling down my cheeks.

“Why? It isn’t your  fault that he cheated.” She said sadly.

But it was.

I opened my mouth, waiting for a guilt to ride out of my mouth and to her delicate, trusting ears. I was waiting until the jolt of pain and anger came seeping out of her already hurt face. I was waiting for the end of the friendship that was sure to come after I had told her the truth.

But it didn’t come.

“I am just finding it hard to see you so worked up over Harry and his whore.” I said in a hushed whisper, every single punishment I could give myself came crashing down and I felt a surge of remorse and disgust for myself penetrate every part of my body.

“Aww baby.” Sky said, pulling me into a hug as I came to grips with my cowardice.

“Look, I just want to know who it was, you know? I need to know if it was because he loves her or if she was just hot.” Sky said sadly and my heart broke further than I thought possible.

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Hey guys, Im going to make this brief,

Im so sorry for not uploading for close to two weeks, I write this story on a laptop and so its not the issue of actually writing it, it is tranfering it from one computer to the other.

I know this chater is crap and really short and I know you must: 

a) hate me

b) be giving up on me

c) not really give a shit

Again, Im so so so so sorry and I will try an upload asap, it ahould be faster since I have just finished three of my exams.

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