I feel wary
When you talk of your love
The way you still love her
It would be bearable
If I didn't know her myself
If I was never once her friend
Because I truly do know
Her beauty
Her wit
And her personality
But why did you have to see it all as well?
It makes me ache
But I will let you finish the story
Because I don't want to let you down
But the way you talk of her
As if she was a dream faraway
And that you can never say
Oh how I turn to stone
The moment you mention her name
My heart jumps back
And my smile goes slack
And blankly I read your response
Hoping not to give anything off
Becuase you don't know me that well yet
But you know exactly who I am
That is why it hurts when
You cry over your first love
Your lost love
Your family torture
Unable to get away but wanting freedom
It makes me wary
Hurt
And discombobulated
It changes my whole day
Especially
When you leave good morning, good afternoon, and goodnight texts
But then you won't talk to me
Leaving me on seen
Then hours later
You reply
I didn't see it
But it fine
As long as you still talk to me
And I'll do anything to be free
Of this curse placed upon me
As I fall deeply into this woven spell
That you can't even tell
Becuase I'm being held up by a well
Before I drop in to hell
Because that's how it feels
When one moment
We talk about the trust we have for each other
Then the next how much you love her
Yes love
Not loved
Becuase you still admire her from afar
Even when you can't speak
I know
Becuase I have felt the same way
And I never let go to this day
But I moved on to you
And that took everything in me
Even when I thought maybe
But now I guess I'm a homie
I feel wary
Becuase when I first met you
I never wanted to be just a friend
I wanted something more
With trust
And now I get chest pains
Becuase I feel my heart beat faster
Even as the thoughts of you I keep afar
That smile I see flashes
And kills me like an arrow
To know those cheesy jokes
And still be able to smile
Knowing
Its not the joke
But the person
Who makes you laugh
But it turns back to her
My old friend
That still only knows me as cookie
And knows you as confusion
But what she doesn't know
Is that me and you are friends
Best friends
I lost the race
Now I deal with the repercussions
I Lay down
Completely emotionless
Untill you come online
Because I can't stand standing all alone
Especially when I thought i could have moved on
Maybe it's not my fault
I always fall for the broken
Though you always looked complete to me
I feel wary
Unknown
A secret
But some of your friends
We're first mine
Then you came along after I sang that song
When I left
They had you
To Lay them to rest
Now I lay my heart into the ground
Trying to bury those feelings
And be the best friend I could ever be
Just like you always wanted me to be.
