Forever Badass

1~4

I WENT downstairs with actually no feelings of regret. I had no fear of my dad whatsoever. He hated me and treated me like shit. So what? I'm used to it. And this wasn't the first time he played he wanted to go off on me. Logan on the other hand, looked so frightened he was gonna shit himself. 

Like I expected, my dad's inner demon had come out. He was engulfed in flames and you could see his veins. 

"You are in to much trouble and when I say so-"

"Yeah don't be all dramatic just hit me with it." I said.

Blue stood there with a smirk while J was recording this. Both of them immediately went onto my murder list, and that's when I got the idea. 

"I said no 'friends' over and what did you do? You brought in a fucking ragdoll into MY HOUSE!" my dad continued to drone.

He gave me a hella long list of chores which I didn't plan on completing, and stormed off back to his room where he was most likely gonna "stress fuck". 

Blue laughed. "Told you you were gonna get in trouble..." 

That girl always made my blood boil. She always feels she's better than everyone else because she can act like a little angel in front of dad and she can control her demon. 

Blue walked off, leaving me, Logan and J in the room together. I soon felt an overwhelming wave of defeat wash over me. My mission was over...useless...I was stuck here because Logan couldn't handle one simple job. 

The boy seemed to read my mind and left with his head down. "Sorry..." was all he muttered.

For the first time in decades I felt tears in my eyes. J took the opportunity to take me to the couch and actually speak to me. 

"Tough to lose at a war ain't it..." he said.

"The fuck you know about this 'war'? Or did Blue expose that too?" I said, wiping my tears. Demons don't cry.

"She didn't reveal anything about your hideout but it's not the first time demons have tried to escape. They either don't get through at all or they eventually end right back up here...where the punishment is worse." 

"You don't understand-"

"I do Moonshine. I'm older than you. And with your 'angelic' sister running around it ain't gonna be worth it. Trust me, you're better off here."

I hated to hear those words, but maybe it was the truth.

Later that day I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, trying to figure out where the hell things went wrong. I had it all planned out. All Logan had to do was apply his dumbass to a li'l metalwork and he couldn't even get that done.

But then again...why was I blaming him..?

I put him on my team. I saw the values in him. I took him to the angel-demon border. I fell asleep on him. 

I was making the mistakes.

I decided to sleep it off. It was my best bet when I was feeling this way, plus my brain worked better when I was asleep. I came to the conclusion that I wasn't giving up yet. Logan was made of better things than what he'd done. I was made of better things than what I'd done. 

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I felt like I was floating. When I opened my eyes, I was in darkness. The only source of light was above me. Out of nowhere, a spirit with red flaming eyes appeared.

Her again? I whined.

Awe, don't look at me like that. Just because you failed at something easy. 

One thing about demon spirits is that they never, EVER leave you alone. You're stuck with them forever...or...until you die and fade out of existence.

I didn't fail! I shouted.

Her response was a slap in my face. Face it. 

If you could just be SUPPORTIVE of me for once- 

Listen sister, this shit wasn't, isn't and will never be about support. That's not how demon spirits are designed. Grow up and see that.

She was right. Demon spirits weren't designed that way. But I can make what she said into something of support. I started to slap myself to see if I could wake up, since I knew I was in a dream, deep into my mind.

If you don't stop doing that...

Sorry, can't hear you! I'm busy waking up!

I soon woke up, and I immediately went to my phone and texted Logan:

Logan

I'm sorry for what I thought. I have an idea for a second shot at this..if you're down for it...If so, imma be at the bar by about 3pm.