Smile (Denki Kaminari x reader)

Six

(Heavy trigger warning: Suicide attempt)

-Kaminari-

(I'm sorry for having Kaminari two times in a row)

I didn't even bother going to school again. I had made my decision the previous night; I was going to finally do it. I walked down to the same bridge that L/N had "saved" me from dying on and stood at the edge. It was really early in the morning, so there were next to no cars. No witnesses, not that anyone driving by would care. I walked over to the railing and looked down at the dark waters. I got up on the rail, then heard a tiny gasp behind me. I didn't care, though. I was about to die.

"K-Kaminari!" I hesitated, but that was all the time she needed. F/C cords wrapped around my waist, irritating some of my cuts.

"L/N, let me go," I said, tugging at her cords.

She lightly pulled me down, but I lost balance. I expected to land on the hard concrete, not get caught by L/N. She let me stand up on my own and made me turn to face her. She looked up at me, her E/C orbs searching my own gold ones. "What is wrong with you?!"

That really did it for me. "Let go, L/N. Let me die!" I said, tears starting to slip down my face. I just wanted to die, why was she trying to make me suffer more?

"No! I won't! You're not jumping off this damn bridge!"

I froze up, looking at her with wide eyes. Did she... Care?

She hugged me tightly, ignoring me trying to push her off. I started breaking down in tears, collapsing to the ground. She collapsed with me, not letting go of me. We knelt there, hugging each other tightly, me crying into her shoulder. "I-I'm sorry."

"Shut up, Kam," She mumbled, her grip on me tightening.

I didn't understand what I was feeling.

-L/N-

I couldn't believe that I did it, that I had really stopped Kaminari from jumping off the bridge and falling to his death, and apparently, all it took was... Not letting him. After he had finished crying we went back to his house, where we sat on his bed. He told me everything right there. The poor boy worried me.

I looked at Kaminari's bandaged arm, which had a bit of blood on it. He had passed out after a while, crying so much having exhausted his energy. I took a test tube from my pocket, feeling horribly guilty for what I was about to do. I went to unwrap his bandages but stopped myself. It's none of my business. I'm not using his blood to keep Toga's mouth shut. I get up and searched around his room for a bit to find his phone, which I saved my phone number into.

I put his phone under his hand, using my phone to send him a quick text: went to do something, I'll be back soon <3

I teleported away, going to the nearest store to get cookies, then teleported to the bar the league of legends chill in, and went upstairs to my room, ignoring Shigiraki. ⚠️(Blood/Harm warning) I locked the door behind me, searching my room for a minute or two for a knife. I sliced the palm of my hand, blood spilling. I held the wound to the tube, watching blood slowly pool at the bottom.
I clenched my bleeding hand into a fist, the tube filled enough... I didn't want to give anymore of my own blood to Toga. I left my room and found her sitting at the bar sipping on a drink. I kept my bleeding hand hidden and handed her the test tube. "Here, a student's blood."

Toga smiled, clapping her hands together and taking the tube. "Ooooh, yes! Thank you thank you thank you! Who's blood is it?" She asked excitedly.

"It's a surprise," I said blankly, teleporting out of there before she hugged me or something.

"L/N!" I turned around, unable to help the smile that formed on my face.

"Kam, you're awake!" I said loudly, nearly hugging him.

He smiled at me, making my stomach get that butterflies feeling. He got up from where he was on his bed and scratched at his bandages nervously. My hand throbbed, a gentle reminded my hand was still bleeding. "Hey, there's blood on your sleeve," He said, gently grabbing my left arm and holding it up. 

Oh fuck.

"Oh, it's just paint," I said quickly. He would hate me if he knew that I was somewhat a part of the League of Villans. He would tell Eraser Head.

"That's fresh... Are you okay?" He asked, leaning closer to me.

"I'm not the one who nearly jumped this morning. How are you?"

He flinched, and I put an arm on his arm, looking down at the floor. "I'm sorry. But really, how are you?"

"I'm fine? You wanna come for a walk? I don't want to be inside." I nodded and followed him outside, struggling to keep myself under control and pester him about that morning.

We reached the area by the mall, kind of, and noticed Bakugo and co. "Aw, L/N, Kaminari! You didn't tell me you were secretly dating!" Mina called out, noticing us. I felt my face heat up and step away from Kaminari, noticing he was also blushing.

"N-No! I-I don't like her like that!" Kaminari said quickly. I tensed up, glaring at him slightly, feeling a little wounded.

"Look, Kaminari, you hurt her feelings!" The redhead rock man said, swaggering over to me and throwing an arm around my shoulder.

"Yeah, Kam," I said sarcastically, doing my best to keep my cool and not teleport away in heartbreak. "You hurt my feelings soooo bad, I might as Bakugo to blow me up." Everyone laughed. "It doesn't matter, I'm outta here, see ya, Kam!" I said, lightly shrugging Kirishima's arm off and teleporting back to my room at the bar. I sat on my bed, holding my head in my hands, my elbows digging into my legs painfully. That hurt, I thought, thinking of what Kaminari had said.

I thought back to what Kaminari had told me about his parents, how they hurt him. "That hurt..." I mumbled, turning over an idea in my head. "No, I'm not a villain..." I sighed, falling backwards into my bed.

"L/N?" Shigiraki was at my door. "We need to talk."