Mrs Margret was surprised when she noticed a change in my interest in sport. She liked me differently and I stopped hearing the detention threat. I made new friends in a couple of weeks, attended parties, ones I wouldn't go to until I started talking to Paul. My PHE class has been going perfectly fine. I never knew I was good in Sport honestly. I became the best me, or should I say someone else. I wanted to be enough.
A month had passed and my bond (do I call it that) with Paul grew stronger. Things were happening faster than I expected. He now invites me to the Famous table at the cafeteria. It takes strong connection with the famous kids of MountainsHigh to get to sit there, except you're being bullied. I was always nervous and scared, but Akeem(one of Paul's friends) would say "Don't be shy señorita, we don't bite" He was the funniest of them all.
I found out Paul loves pizza just as much as I do and I promised to deliver him some one day (Remember I work after school? Yes, I deliver pizzas). I got more comfortable around him. I found out he wasn't as wild as I thought. I can already imagine having this big bag of finesse all to myself(Sweet Jesus!)
Everyone noticed our closeness, I get nervous when he's with me and people are kind of looking (not really looking but kind of looking yunno?) but deep down I don't give a flying fuck about it. I'm not a type that would catch a bird and then let it go, no, I'd love to play with it, appreciate it's worth, I might also want to keep it too, but once it hurts me, I might want to let it go then. I believe I can do whatever the hell I want, life is to short to ask what will people say.
Akeem was Paul's best friend who liked jewel. I don't know how far they've gone, but I know she never really gave a shit about him. Jewel is attracted to tall guys, but Akeem is short, very short and she never gets tired of taking from him. I warned her several times to stop taking from him if she's got nothing to do with him, but she won't listen.(C'mon it's not nice)
It marked a month real quick since I got pretty close to Paul. I always thought of him everytime. I entertain myself with my imaginations of him touching me and somehow sliding into my pants. I know that would never ever happen, but it's worth thinking of you know. He would call me, and we would talk on the phone for hours. He introduced me to his elder brother on phone who seemed to be very nice and would tease me over my feelings for Paul and tell me about all the funny things Paul did when he was little. I couldn't stop laughing when he told me the story of how young Paul slept off in the bathtub and how he used to run around the house when the power is turned off or when he had their dad's international passport covered in crayons even the dog wasn't left out, he nearly set the house on fire once too.
It was a cold Sunday night. I was on my phone having a conversation with Paul on Facebook. I couldn't hold my feelings for him anymore. I wanted to know how he felt about me. I wanted to know if I was just a friend or more, but the fear of being seen as a thirsty ass teenage girl who clouds over a boy won't let me talk about how I really feel about him? But I was madly in love with him already. Maybe I should ask Jewel for advice.
I picked up my phone and dialed Jewel's number for the third time that moment hoping she'd pick up. I heard the beep Six times, but she wouldn't pick, so I guess she was was asleep. I was in the middle of loosing hope when I heard her voice on the other end of the call. "Hello Jully, what's up"?
"Oh thanks holy Jee, please for the one-hundredth time always pick my calls" I warned her "I picked already so what's up"? She snapped back at me.
"Okay okay Hum... I've been talking to Paul for a while now and I think I should let him know" Mouthing the "W" in the know.
"What do you mean know"? I was quiet and waited for her to get what I meant.
"What... For real? You're telling him? I thought we talked about this Jully?"
I cut her "I like him Jay, I really do and you know that"
She was quiet, then she said "Okay baby, do it. I trust you in this and just know I'd be kicking someone's ass if he does anything stupid" I smiled at her joke "Thanks Jee, love you"
After I hung up, I saw three unread messages from Paul
Paul: So would you be in school tomorrow?
Paul: Hey, you there?
Paul: Hey!!!!! Please don't sleep yet😢
I chuckled at the texts from Paul. I replied back.
Reply: She's fighting in a Zombie Apocalypse would you like to join in
Paul: I don't mind 😁 At least I'll be with you.
Wait? What? "I'll be with you" That alone gave me a go ahead. I took in oxygen like I needed to store some somewhere incase it finishes.
Reply: 😂😂 That's funny. I want to ask you a question.
Paul: Yeah, anything
Reply: Do you like anyone?
Paul: Do you like me?
5 minutes later
Paul: Be sincere
Reply: Yes😖😩
Paul: I'm calling you now
Soon Takeaway by chainsmokers and Illenium was blasting from my phone with Paul's name boldly showing on the screen. My palm became sweaty and cold, but love is the only emotion more powerful than fear! So hell yes, I'm picking this call.
"Hello" I could hear my own voice shaking. My throat suddenly became dry and I felt the urge to drink two glasses of water at least.
"Hi" he finally said. I was so nervous that I replied hi again.
He laughed and asked "How impatient are you"? The question was a bomb, or should I say awkward. I'm sure he wasn't expecting us to be expressing our feelings this early, but I replied "I chew ice"
"What? you chew ice"?
"Yes Paul, I chew ice coz I can't wait for it to melt" and I realized that was a dumb thing to say by the time I was done.
I heard him burst into laughter. "So, me and you tomorrow after classes?" Did he just ask me out on a date? (Shut your ass up Jully, he just wants to hang out tomorrow) Hahahahahha, this is the best conversation I've had in a long time.
"Yeah tomorrow, but where"? "let's meet in the hall by 5"
"Five it is" I kept smiling like an idiot.
"Alright, goodnight Angel. Dream about me"
"Goodnight Paul" My head and whole body wanted to jump all over the room but I just laid in bed silently smiling at myself like a kid handed a candy.
Every love story is interesting when the person you love loves you back. I don't know if Paul loves me back, but I pray he does, cos I no longer want to be the same girl who listens to Faded by XAM over and over again. I no longer want to be the same girl who is broken and faded. I need more colours in my faded world of black and white.
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*Besides, Faded by Xam isn't a bad song. It's just a song that explains how depressed Juliet used to be.
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Ice Picked Hearts
Teen FictionA story of a young girl who seeks nothing but a life with no ups and downs. A life where you can love someone and be loved back. A life where you can get healed with no scars. A life where you can be whatever you want to be.
