My heart bleeds and I have slipped on the droplets of my own pain and heartache. I plead for this to be over. I've been embraced by pain for too long, I need space to breath. My whole life is choking from my struggles and depression and I swear I won't regret it if I end it all right now. Is there someone watching how hard I'm seeking for freedom and happiness even if it's just once in my life?
All I want is to live a simple life where I get everything I want. Is that too much to ask for? I guess it is, coz life doesn't always give you what you want.
I sit in my regular spot under the cold droplets of rain thinking of how unfair life has been to me. One of the goods rain does to me is when it hides my tears. I can't help but let it all out.
And there he comes and sits beside me soaking himself in the rain. Why should he pick a choice to be under the rain with me?
"I'm not here to talk to anyone".
"But I am, and where I'm from we greet". The words he said played in my head flashing a memory of when we first met.
"Please, I wish to be alone now. Respect my privacy this once". I pleaded.
"Soft conversation does a lot to humans that silence... I'm sure you never knew". He said with sympathy in voice.
"What if I'm not what you think I am? What if I'm a fucking liar and I'm just using you to run away from this piece of shit I call life?" I really don't know why I said that. Sometimes, we say and do things just to feel sadder than we already are.
"I'm old enough to believe that things happen for a reason. Meeting you, having you, knowing you, kissing you, everything? All for a reason. But then, you fucking things up is also a reason. Saying this and expecting a reply like I hate you till death, or go fuck yourself won't make you feel better". He refused to make an eye contact with me despite the fact that I knew that he could feel my eyes on him. "All you're saying isn't true and even if they were, they won't change a thing. They won't change how I feel about you". Even in pain and chaos, his words always finds a good place to fit in my soul. I tried to push the lump in my throat down so I could say something. So I could say that I'm grateful we crossed parts and that I love him. The thought of using the word love when it comes to Jake sounds overwhelming.
"Juliet?" He finally turned. His hair fell on his face caused by the droplets of rain rolling down to his jaw before dropping on his thighs. "I know you're going through a hard time, but it'll all be over soon. You know what to do Juliet. You're strong, smart and again you know what to do when you don't want to loose someone or something".
"I was a fool to believe staying alone will cause this pain to disappear. I'm glad you're here Jake. I'm glad we crossed parts". He stood up wearing back his hoodie. "Your mom wants you back home. Everyone is worried about you. You know what to do when you don't want to loose something".
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Ice Picked Hearts
Novela JuvenilA story of a young girl who seeks nothing but a life with no ups and downs. A life where you can love someone and be loved back. A life where you can get healed with no scars. A life where you can be whatever you want to be.
