Ice Picked Hearts

Chapter-12

Dedication: To @girlwho_lovestowrite
QueridaLoco Thank you so much for your support on this book. I'll be forever grateful.
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What have I done to the Almighty? Why am I ill fated? I can't believe I was betrayed by my own best friend.

The cold breeze caused shivers in my body. I clenched my teeth together as tears rolled down my cheek. I can't believe I have been so stupid all these while. I fell for the same boy who dumps girls in Mountainshigh and expect him to be loyal to me. A sharp pain stroke my chest and I almost lost control while riding the scooter.

Returning back to McBills. I packed the scooter in the small garage and returned to keys to Mr P who keeps them. I walked home feeling lost and shattered.

Mom had gone out, just like she does every night. It was almost midnight. The night was dark and quiet and all I heard were my own thoughts. I don't know how many times I have to say I'm tired of everything. I don't know what I have to do to change all that is happening.

I need to rest. Maybe when I wake up it'll all be a dream. My legs made creaking sounds on the wooden  floor. Someone had left my room opened. I remember closing it before leaving.
I walked in and the view left me devastated.

My closet was completely ruined with my clothes hanging aimlessly on the edges while the rest were scattered on the floor. My bed was turned over and my books scattered around the room.

It came on me and I checked everywhere for it. I checked everywhere but I didn't find it. "No! No!! This can't be happening!
My savings were gone! Everything was gone. I'm never going to the university. I saved for it, I worked for it and now it's gone!

"Mom! Mom!!"

I ran to her room and checked everywhere but she wasn't there. I tried calling but she denied all of my calls. My life is ruined. It's crazy how things can just change in the blink of an eye. It's crazy how someone might be standing just right in front of you and the next minute they're gone. It's crazy how you have something in your hand and the next minute it's broken.

What if I was here earlier? I could have stopped this. I could have stopped this if I hadn't gone to that stupid party. My life is just like a roller coaster with bad wheels. I'm only seventeen, but my problems makes me feel forty.

A lump formed in my throat causing me to feel nauseous. I slumped over, fell on my knees and weeped silently.
I weeped silently until I fell asleep on that same spot.

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I woke up and lay on the bed. Strings of pains striking my knee. I have been there for too long. The wall clock says it's 2:01am. My mom didn't come back last night.

At midnight my thoughts hit differently. I would have advised sleeping pills but I don't want to end up a drug addict like mom.
My story is more like the story of the kids in the movie Nightmares at Elm street, but the Mr Freddie hunting me in my sleep are my problems. I wish I wasn't born. I wish I had died in the womb. Sometimes I wonder why me as a sperm got to the egg first. Must have taken enough courage and energy to get there and why don't I have that courage now?

You have a new message.

I unlocked my phone and read through.

Juliet, I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you. I'm sorry for all the shame you carry coz of me. I'm sorry for all the time you felt down coz of me. I'm really sorry. I feel so ashamed for hurting someone like you. Someone peaceful, cheerful and understanding like you. You're a good friend. I know I've disappointed you, I've let you down countless times and I know I should be feeling guilty for all my mistakes, but I want you to know that I saw the end before we began and at a point I wanted to use you coz I saw you were innocent and blinded and I knew I had won, but after seeing who you really are I know it'll be a heartless act to hurt you and I guess I already did.
For real, I don't know what I feel for you, but I want us to be friends and I don't know if that'll ever be possible after everything I did to you.

Second message

If I couldn't help you when I should have, I should still be able to help you while I still can. Stay away from Jewel... she isn't a good friend to you and she'll ruin you if you let her. She probably is the only one who has the password to your accounts.
She wants what you have and she'll do anything to get it.
I'm sorry again and I'll be happy if you still want to be friends.

I closed the chat without sending a reply. There's nothing to say. His apology can't heal the wound in my chest and I'm happy I now know what he feels for me. Nothing, just nothing.

All I've worked for is gone and I have more things bothering than a relationship that won't work.

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