"He's here. Why? Why is he back? Could this be a dream?" I sit in my bed. Enveloped by silence and fear. I'm not ready to face the reality. My heart aches. Adrenaline pumped in my veins. A mixed feeling of anger and hatred towards the name David.
"Why did he have to come now? He was gone for like forever. I do not need him. He thinks he can just pop out of nowhere and expect me to accept him as my father. I'd rather die...I'd rather die!"
"Can I come in?" A voice came from the door which would be no one else but my mother. "Come in". I was trying so hard to fight the anger in my voice and the tears at the corner of my eyes.
"Mom? ...You're crying". My heart broke seeing her cry.
She sat on my bed and held her hands together. A small smile appeared on her lips giving me hopes that things were going to be fine. Her warm hands caressed my face softly and gently.
"Juliet". She called in a calm and gentle voice which is very unlike her. "I've been a very bad mother Juliet". She burst into tears and my heart ached even more. "I shouldn't have done that to you. You're beautiful, intelligent, smart...considerate. You're everything a mother would ask for and that's why I don't know why I treated you so bad and horrible all these years. I should be killed for this. I'm a bad mother..."
"Mom stop! You're going to make me cry. You're not that way. You loved me all these years, you cared for me". I tried to comfort her.
"Did I?" She asked. Another moment of silence fell between us. "I need you to answer me sweetheart. Did I care for you?". My answer could have been a no, but I'm not going to add more to what we're going through. "Mom, I love you, I loved you even when things weren't fine between us and I'll still love you. You could have dumped me in a trash coz you never wanted me, but you didn't. Instead you took me, cared for me and...".
"Enough Juliet! Enough! I can hear the lies and hate in your words". She yelled.
"You're assuming things!" I lied again.
"I'm not. I know I'm not a good mother. I've done terrible things. I've done too many things I can't forgive myself for". She cried quietly. I was too tired of trying to convince her she didn't hurt me. Yes, she hurt me real bad and I'm still trying to get over it but what can I say?
"Mom you are my mother and no one knows you better than I do. Please just believe me this once...please".
Her face fell into her arms as she cried again. "I took you away from your Father". She said. I don't know why she's bringing up this topic about my father. Could it be that she knows he's here in Georgia?
"No Mom, we both know that he left us".
"No Jully, no, that was what you heard from me". She told me.
"What are you talking about?"
"When your father left, I cut off all connections he could use in finding us and told him you were dead coz I realized I...I..." she stuttered on the last words.
"You realized that what?"
"That... I didn't want a family with him and I... wanted to take you to the orphanage so I could marry...a billionaire who wouldn't want to take a single mother as a wife, but he was murdered and I lost everything".
I was startled. Everything turned blurry as the tears in the corner of my eyes rolled down.
"Then why didn't you just call dad and tell him that all you told him was a lie?" I asked.
"I'm sorry, I was just too selfish. You had an inheritance from your late grandfather and I was your next of kin. After loosing everything. I had no one to turn to and no where to go so I contacted David that you were dead, he handed me the inheritance and I sold all of it. So it was hard for me to reverse my words. I could end up in jail and I didn't want that. I didn't want to be behind the bars. Juliet, I'm sorry. I really am".
"My whole life has been a lie. I... I trusted you". My heart ached with so much pain.
"Mom!!! Why are you like this?! Why?!" I let out a scream that made her shook. "All these wasn't necessary. You put my happiness at risk. Even after you lost everything, you still didn't try to reverse your ways".
"All I did was unforgettable and irreversible Juliet. I just had to live with it!"
"I regret being your daughter. I don't want to be around you right now".
"Juliet?! Juliet please!!! Don't leave! I'm sorry!" I took to my heels wishing I could disappear and seize to exist from this world of lies.
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Ice Picked Hearts
Teen FictionA story of a young girl who seeks nothing but a life with no ups and downs. A life where you can love someone and be loved back. A life where you can get healed with no scars. A life where you can be whatever you want to be.
