Ice Picked Hearts

Chapter-16

The alarm woke me up again like it does every morning. I brushed my teeth, had my bath and dressed up for school.

It's a Thursday. It amaze me how slow this week is going by and how much drama I've dealt with in just three days. It's funny how I can be stronger than I thought.

I arrived at school early. There were a few others in the class, including the new kid. He bowed his head on his desk with his earphones in his ears. The day started as quickly as I expected. Had a few classes and before I knew it, it was already lunch.

I stay alone in my class most times at lunch. I'm not a fan of the cafeteria, besides the food sold there aren't so good.

I used to be only one left in the class out of sixteen of us, but now I believe there's someone who doesn't enjoy the cafeteria as much as I don't.

"Slide to the shower, fuck you 24hrs". He sang out.

Wtf...He's a pervert! Shut the voice in your head Juliet.

"Please, would you lower your voice, I'm tryna think here". I told him, a bit of rudeness attached to it. He looked at my side, but ignored what I have just told him.

"Slide to the shower, fuck you 24hrs". He sang again even louder this time.

I picked up my phone, went through my playlist and played Happy now by Kygo and Sandro_Cavazza, backing it up with my horrible voice.

"We don't wanna believe it"
"that it's all gone"
"Just a matter of minutes"
"Before the sun goes down..."

He got up on his long legs, stuck his hands in his pocket and walked out of the class and I just sat in my seat, feeling like I have an uncanny ability.

Soon, other students strolled in and we continued the rest of the classes.

At the end of school hour, I went home, changed into my work uniform before going to a McBills to resume my shift at 5:00pm.

The orders went well as always. I closed by 10:00pm and returned back home.

I lay in my bed, admired the moon that peaked in through my window. My mind streamed back to the conversation I had at midnight.

Before I knew it, I grabbed my hoodie and headed outside with my pepper spray in my hand.

I got to the tree, but unfortunately, he wasn't there. Funny how I thought I'd find him here again. I was in the middle of giving up hope when I saw a tall figure in the dark.

Fear creeped my chest and I moved back slowly.

"Cinderella?" The voice said.

"Oh, its you...You scared me". I held unto my chest.

"I'm sorry". He apologized.

"No...no...it's... it's fine". I stuttered.

After a while, he finally said. "Let's take a sit". We sat on the bench under the old tree.

"Soooo, how are you?" He asked

"I'm fine. I think". I answered.

"You're not fine, are you?" He asked again.

"I'm not sure".

"Me too Cinderella...me too?...Do I know you? Your voice sounds familiar". He asked

"Yes... coz you heard it last night". I replied.

"That should be. What's your name?" He asked.

"Let's keep our identities for now. Please, coz I have a lot to talk about". I begged.

"Okay... If that's what you want...Sooo...what's your major insecurity?" He asked

"Woooff..." I let out a sharp breath.

"My major insecurity?...That I am not good enough. I don't mean in anything specific, but generally in life: in work, relationships, in academia, in sex (lol)... generally in life. What about you?"

"That, I can't do anything right. I destroy anything I lay my hands on, and I'm scared. I feel I'll never change and about your insecurities. I can also relate to feeling not good enough and experiencing "imposter syndrome" but I try to remind myself life is not about being perfect but about getting better. As long as I am working on myself to get better, I am good enough". He said to me.

"But do you know you're speaking about yourself too?" I told him.

"I know, but it's easier said than done you know?"

"So...what do you plan on doing about your insecurities?" I asked

"Staying away from things I know I can break, hearts to be precise".

"You can't stay away for too long, you should fight it... I can help you". I don't know I always tell people I'll be there for them when I've not even started taking proper care of myself yet. I tried moving closer to him but he yelled at me".

"And how is that your business huh? See just go home. I shouldn't have been here in the first place".

He got up from his seat and walked out on me.

"Wait!"

"Just go". He told me.

And I just stood there in regrets.

"It complicated, two broken people meet to change it and try to paint it".

I'm trash, no one wants me.

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