Raw Love

Bad Bad

It has already been almost a month since I texted Kaeden's story and no one has given me any updates. I was so scared to log back into my account but I did anyway because I can't take it anymore. When I looked I saw more than I wanted to, Kaeden left me on read. I feel so hurt and I guess I let myself get hurt again. It seems like anytime I let myself get close to anyone I end up getting hurt. 

After I let everybody know I got left on read Alana tells me that she knew already and she didn't want to make me sad. She told Deja and even Deja tried to make sure I wouldn't be upset about it. 

"It must be something wrong with me", I cry on Group FaceTime.

"No it's something wrong with the guys", Deja says.

"Yea Kayla it's just a lot of dirty niggas out here", Alana says.

"I'll talk to Kaeden", Shayla says.

"No, I don't want anybody talking to him, he made his choice", I sniffle.

"I don't care, he dumb as hell cause you are fucking sexy", Deja says.

"Thank you Deja", I try to smile and the tears make my eyes blurry.

"See no, this is no way to feel" Deja goes on pause "we are going to Derrick's Halloween party next week".

"Derrick from school?" I ask.

"Hell yea", she says.

"Bet!", Alana says.

"I already know what I'm going to wear", Shayla says.

I have an idea of what I want to wear. I will buy it today or tomorrow, PLT yes ma'am.

"I am going to buy my costume by tomorrow", I say.

We all get off the phone and I start looking for parts of my costume since I am not going to get one of these basic Party City ones.

I find some high heeled high knee red sock boots, a hourglass heart shaped red bodysuit with laced stitches near the chest, an attachable tail, cute devil horns tiara and a flamed pitch fork to match. I am going to be the devil's bad bitch, period.

The week came quicker than expected but so did my package it came on Tuesday and Halloween is Saturday! I take out everything and try it on to see if it fits, and it does. Damn, I look really good. Kaeden is truly missing out on one bad ass bitch.

*My package came!!!!!!*, I text in the group chat.

*Ayyyyyye that's lit*, Deja texts.

*Lemme see lemme see*, Alana texts.

*My stuff coming tomorrow*, Shayla texts.

*Same*, Alana and Deja text at the same time.

*Ya'll gotta wait to see it when its on*, I send.

*Ugh fine, I guess we have to wait*, Deja sends.

*Everybody just surprise each other and wear their costumes, we see it fresh on Saturday*, Alana sends.

*Bet*, Shayla sent.

I am so excited about Saturday because I haven't had the chance to dress up and go out in a long time. The last time I did that we went to the mall and movies, that was fun but this is 'bout to be banging. Derrick is hosting the party and I hear he does popping parties. His parents must don't care to much about the people but he probably cleans up his mess. Thinking about going to Derrick's house makes me go back to the time where he had a thing for me. I still can't believe that I gave him my number. We only talked for a couple of days but I had to end that.