Raw Love

Why You So Loud?

I ended up falling asleep on the couch and didn't wake back up until it was time to leave. I felt like I could eat another plate so I made two for the road. I also don't know when there will be food in the house again and I am saving money, so no online shopping before I get paid again which also means no Uber Eats or Door Dash. 

"I hope you got something for Warren", Brandi says in the car.

"Yes", I say.

"Better", she says and looks at me through the rear-view mirror. She really be thinking that she does something to me when she mugs me, that just makes her look uglier.

We get home and I go to my room to change. I have work tomorrow but I'm not sleepy. I look at my phone and its after midnight, I know Deja is awake so I text her.

*Hey sexy*, I send.

*I-hi sexy*, she sends.

*Don't I- me*, I send.

*I-Im just breathing*, she sends.

*Nah you not, you sexy*, I sent.

*I-anyways, you home now*, she sent.

*Yea*, I send.

*I ate so much turkey, Im stuffed*, she sends.

*I ate alot but I slept so Im hungry again*, I send. It's true, I ate a big plate but now I feel like eating again. I may find a snack to eat while I watch YoungBoy videos...may make an edit too. 

*I know Imma be hungry soon*, Deja sends.

*I am going to make a yb edit*, I send.

*As you should*, she sends. I start making the edit and then go back to Deja's iMessage.

*But Brandi is getting on my nerves more and more everyday*, I send.

*Her goal is to get on your nerves, I thought we established this...she is bitter and needs something to do*, she sends.

*I know but its irritating*, I send.

*I just dont want her to keep making you so worked up, you know what she says isnt true so dont let it get to your head, thats what she wants*, she sent.

*I know...sigh*, I send and go back to my edit. I pick the slow version of one of his songs and pick a few of my favorite videos and pictures of him. I love YoungBoy, he is so cute and sweet to his kids. It sucks that his baby mamas act the way they do, especially psycho Yaya stabbing Lapattra, Starr lying about Kamron being his, and even baby Tay Tay being in a car accident with his careless mother Niya who didn't have him buckled down. He has been through so much and everyone doesn't even see that. His father has a 55-year jail sentence and has been in jail since he was 8, his mother left them after his father went to jail so he lived with his grandma and then his grandma died.

*Im still out but I hope you made it in safe*, my thoughts are interrupted and I look down at my phone to see that Mike texted.

*Im home...what are you doing*, I send.

*Im on the street, i will head in when im done*, he sends. I am pretty sure he sells drugs, well he told me he does but I believe it now. I don't mind that he does, I've always said I wanted a drug dealer baby daddy.

*Ok*, I send.

*Kayla stop sighing cause she is not in control, dont let her stop the greatness you got going for yourself*, Deja sends.

*I-I didnt do anything*, I send.

*Yes you did, letting her make you doubt yourself*, she sends.