Don't Get too Close: A Billie and Brandon Story

11

I sat there frozen in time at the proposal. I was speechless. Of course I would love to stay here, but I have no idea what it's like to have stability in my life.

"Billie, I know this is a big deal for you and I want to give you some time to the about before we start doing anything big. But please consider this, we love having you here and I've watched you become happier over the months."

It was so overwhelming. I had my own car keys sitting on the table in front of me. I was in this big ass house with people who tell me they love me everyday. But I'm still scared. What if something happens and I end up getting tooken away anyway?

I look at Maggie who has a hint of worry in her eyes. As if she was scared I'd say no. I have to take my chance and just hope it doesn't blow up in my face. Why would it?

"You're right. I would love to stay here with you." I softly smiled.

"As long as you're hear with me, I won't let anyone hurt you again. Like I promised." she said referring to my last home. "But with that being said, we have to go through a lot of legal stuff to adopt a child, I just need you to stay on your best behavior. No drugs." she glared at me. She must've been able to tell I haven't been completely clean as I promised.

"Okay...Mom!" I said giving a fake attitude to imitate how people talk to their parents in tv shows.

She rolled her eyes and chuckled and started preparing dinner. I sat their for awhile until I got a text notification from Josh. I rolled my eyes and rushed upstairs to check it.

Josh 😒: i need to talk to yu

I looked at the preview of it and decided to ignore. He was probably full of shit anyway. I plop on my bed and FaceTime Brandon.

He answer the phone with a big smile on his face. "Hey, sexy." he said.

"I have news." I said excitedly.

"What's up?"

"So...I'm getting adopted!"

"No way! See, I told you we would work." he smiled.

"I wanna celebrate, but Maggie said no weed." I frowned.

"You're a crackhead." he chuckled. "Come over." he licked his lips seductively.

"It's a school night." I smirked.

"Since when do you care about school?"

"Since I found out I'll be living here for good."

"Girl stop playin." he said irritated.

"Okayyy come pick me up." I giggled.

"Alright, I'm on my way." he said before hanging up.

I hopped in the passenger seat and gave him a hug before shutting the door behind me.

"Hey mamas." he smiled.

"Heyyy." I said brightly as he pulled off.

When we arrived to his house I went straight to his room. I took off my shows and layed on his bed.

"I'm really happy, Brandon." I smiled looking at him.

"I'm really happy for you." he smiled getting on the bed and sitting next to me.

I leaned back up to him and softly pressed our lips together. "I really like you." I said briefly breaking the kiss and going back in.

I layed my hand against his face and tilted my head to deepen the kiss. I felt his hand touch my inner thigh and slowly crept under my baggy shorts.

My breaths started to come faster as the kiss intensified. The room kept getting hotter and hotter and it seemed like nothing mattered but this moment right here.

I felt him go for my shirt and start to attempt to take it off. As his hands lingered my body, it was like all of a sudden, I was at Daddy's house again.

"Don't you think it's time for me to go to school? I don't really wanna do this today."

"Shut up!" Daddy said roughly taking my shirt off. "You'll be fine. I love you."

I quickly broke away from the kiss inhaling sharply.

"Brandon!" I said shoving him away. "Brandon, stop!" I yelled.

"What? What did I do?" he asked frantically.

"Ugh, nothing." I said rubbing my face. "I just can't do this?"

"What do you mean? Are you like a virgin or something?" he rose an eyebrow.

I bit my lip in embarrassment. It wasn't like I had ever had actually sex before so technically I was a virgin. But scientifically I was very much not a virgin thanks to that asshole.

"No way." he chuckled as a response to my silence.

"What do you mean, no way?" he glared at him annoyingly.

"Not too long ago, you were practically begging me to fuck you in that closet." he said laughing.

"Okay, first of all, fuck you and second of all, I was high off my ass that day. Weed should be considered a fucking rape drug." I said awkwardly running my hands through my hair.

"So, you really haven't done it with anyone yet."

"Um...I'm not a virgin actually. It's just a little complicated. I don't know." I shrugged with my head low.

"Oh, you lost it to some asshole."

"Something like that."

"So what's the problem then?"

"Like I said, it's complicated."

"Billie, maybe now that we're kind of in a relationship, we shouldn't keep things bottled up."

"Fine," I said building myself up to speak. "I um...at my uh...last foster home, my foster father used to uh...I don't know. He just made me do things I didn't wanna do." I stammered through avoiding and type of eye contact. "I haven't dont it with anyone else."

We sat in silence before he finally broke the silence.

"That's fucked up." he leaned in to put his arm around me and pulled me close as I layed my head on his shoulder.

There was an awkward tension in the room. You know that feeling you get when someone says something really fucking depressing and you're not sure what to say or do. I felt how uncomfortable he was.

"Hey," he said asking for my attention. I looked up at him. "You're still a virgin." he said smiling all big and cheesy. We both broke out in to laughter at his stupid comment. "No, but seriously, that asshole didn't take anything from you. Don't let him win."

I smile brightly and leaned back in to kiss him knowing that I truly liked this one.

yuck the cheesiness of this chapter. and im aware of all the mistakes but i do not feel like rereading it 🥱