bughead_stories

anxiety

This onehsot is based on one of floralemi oneshots. Thank you for letting me use the Idea.

Betty p.o.v
I feel my hand start to sweat and my heart start to beat faster. My breath quickens and I look frantically around. Jughead promised to be there with me, but now he is gone.

I see him standing with Sweetpea and Toni, "JUG" I yell, but my screams die down in the loud echo of the music that's blaring.

I'm surrounded by sweaty dancing bodies who bump into me, I psuh them away but it's no luck.

I try to run towards Jughead, but I get pushed into the dancing crowd. I feel my breath speeding up, my hand go above my head trying to raise attention.

But It didn't work, I walked into a unkown direction and pushed dancing bodies away. I stumbled to a door and opened it finding a empty backyard.

I let out a breath of relief and fall to the ground, I hug my knees tightly and take a deep breath. I think back at what my therapist said, and close my eyes.

I just hear the words in my mind, "Betty if you ever have a panick attack and other people can't help you, think about you're happy place."

I think about Jugheads trailer, the ugly flower wallpaper and old couch. I think abou t the kitchen and the old and cracky cabinets.

I think about the old tv where me and Jug always watch the same movies. I think about the bathroom where me and Jug had a beautiful moment in the shower.

I think about his bedroom, the old bed with the old matress, the bed sheets that smell like his parfume, I think about how his shirts are always laying on the ground. And I think about Jughead.

I think about his face, his very light frecles that he only get's in the summer. I think about his eyes, where you have the beautiful sky bleu and powerfull wood green are mixed.

I feel that my breathing slows down a bit and I open my eyes again feeling more calm.

Then the door got suddenly pushed open, and in the yard stumbled a Jughead looking around frantically, when he sees me he let out a huge breath and ran towards me before engulving me in a huge hug.

"Thank god I found you baby, where were you. I was searcjing for you" he says breathless while taking my face in his hands.

"I...you left me. And uhm my anxiety got to much" I mumbled to him, leaning into his warm and strong touch.

He sighed and looks at me, "god I'm a asshole. I promised that I stayed with you at this stupid party. I'm so sorry" he says giving little kisses all over my face.

I giggled a little and shook my head, "It's okay" I say starting to smile a little. I don't know how he does it, but he can always make me smile. It doesn't matter where or how I am, he always makes me smile.

"No It's not. Did something happend baby" he says looking deep into my eyes staring at me.

I can't help but stare at him. "I had a panick attack" I mumble to him quietly, suddenly feeling ashamed. I couldn't even go to a stupid party without having a full panick attack, god i'm pathetic.

"And you got you're breathing in control alone" he asked me the shock is evident on his face.

My brain goes grazy with qeustions. 'What does he mean alone' maybe when he realises that you can do it yourself he will leave you' no he will not' yes he will, come on he sees you as a pathetic human being' oaky maybe he will leave you' yes he will leave you'

"I uhm i did" I wisper to him trying to let all the qeustions go.

His face breaks out into a big smile and hugged me tightly, "I'm so proud of you" he says kissing my cheek.

I look at him feeling confused. What does he mean proud. I had a panick attack at a event that is normal for so many people.

"What do you mean proud? I had a panick attack because of a stupid party" I asked him.

He sighed and took my face in hsi hands again. "I'm saying that I'm extremely proud of you. 3 months ago you wouldn't be able to calm you'reself down, but now you did. It's progress baby and I'm proud"

He kisses me softly and looks me deep in the eyes when he pulls away a little. "I love you" he breaths out.

I smile a little and kiss him, "I love you too"

He always makes me smile.

That was that, thank you again floralemi that I could use this amazing Idea, I hope you like it. Let me know you're tought, reqeusts and Ideas are always welcome. And if you ever want to talk send me a message I' always open for a conversation.

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