bughead_stories

in case you don't live forever

Be ready for tears

Betty p.o v
Here I am again, in the middle of the night. Laying on this big field while staring at the big dark night sky, staring at all the stars.

I hear footsteps coming closer, and soon I feel a big and warm hand touch mine. I smile and turn my head to my left  seeing Jughead next to me.

He's also laying on the ground, whike smiling at me. His eyes hold so much love, and I know that mine eyes do too.

"Why did you wanna meet here baby" Jughead wisperd quietly, after a long moment of both of us enjoying each other and the silence that is all around us.

"I just wanna stare at the sky, one last time" I said back, while turning my head back again and starting to look at the beautiful stars again.

When I look at them, it almost feels like I'm floating, like I'm not on the ground annymore, but I'm up. And I'm slowly floating towards the sky. So I can finally damce with the stars, dance into oblivious.

I hear Jughead sigh next to me, and he starts laying a little closer to me, so now our arms are touching too. "Baby, you will be fine" he said in a stern voice. And I know he is trying to assure himself that.

"Jug...I think we both know that's a lie" I said to him back, my voice bearly above a wisper while not looking away from the stars.

I hear his breath stop for a second and feel his hand starting to hold mine tighter, "no. No you will be just fine" he said and then wraps his arm aeound my waist. Pulling my body into his.

I let out a soft breath, and hold onto his arm tightly. Never wanting to get out of his warm and secure embrace.

We are silent, for a long time after that. I focus on his steady heartbeat, while feeling the cold wind breeze onto my skin.

I look down at Jugheads hand, and grab his in mine. I play with his fingers while thinking about all the memories we already shared together.

I think about our fist I love you, about our first time together, about us both finding out I have a heart disease. I think about how he was there for me, every doctors meeting I had. He was there, holding my hand.

Were still so young, but I can't imagine this world without him. Even if I don't have a lot of time anymore, I want every second spent with Jughead.

"Jug...do you rember my favourite song? The one that I always wanted to be played on our wedding" I asked him, breaking the silence.

"Of course, you play that song twice a day" he said chuckling a little. I smile and nod my head yes slowly.

I wrap my arms righter around him and lay my head against his chest. "Jug, we can never have that wedding we always dremaed about" I said with a sad voice.

and slowly one traitor tear fell from my eyes, falling down my cheek until it hit my hand, I stare at the single tear on my hand. And slowly more fall.

I hear Jugheads breath getting faster and his hold getting tighter. "We are going to marry baby" he tried to assure me again.

"Jug were not even eighteen yet" I said laughing softly, at his tatement.

"You will be eighteen in only 6 months. We can marry then" he said, and I heard the begging behind his voice. I heard that he wished for those six months, but we both know that those 6 months are impossible.

"Jug, I'm not gonna make six months" I said in a quiet and sad voice. And then silence, for a long time I hear nothing except for light wind and the soft breathing of Jughead.

And then suddenly, I hear him suddenly humming my favourite song. I close my eyes as soon he started singing, and get lost into the lines of the song and the soft singing voice of my treu love.

You put all your faith in my dreames,
You gave me the world that I wanted
What did I do to deserve you?

I cry a little more when I hear the song, and crawl more into Jugheads body. All the words he sang were painfull and truthfull at the same time, and it hurts in the most beautiful way.

I follow your steps with my feet
I walk on the road that you started
I need you to know that I heard you, every word

Soon I felt Jugheads voice starting the crack a little to, and I turned my head around seeing him silently crying while singing the song softly. I smile a little at him, and turn full around on his lap.

I look at him while silently crying, and soon I started singing the lyrics softly with him.

I've waited way too long to say
Everything you meant to me.
In case you don't live forever let me tell you now.
I love you more then you'll ever wrap your head around.

We pause for a second and I smile at him, I kiss him softly on the mouth and it feels like the time stops.

With this kiss I show him how much he means to me, in this kiss I tell him more then words ever could. I love him more then my own life and I can't believe I'm going to leave him soon.

I'm never going to see his gorgeous eyes or hear his stupid jokes. I'm never going to hear him laugh at his own stupid jokes. And I'm never going to hear him sing again.

Soon I will be gone, and nothing can be done to prevent that. But it still hurts, it hurts so much.

We slowly pull away and just stare in each others eyes again. Then he opens his mouth and sings the last line of the song.

In case you don't live forever
Let me tell you the truth.
As long as I'm here as I am.
So are you

SSooothat was that, the song is in case you don't live forever from ben platt. To be honest I cried while writing this because I was listening to the song in the backround. If you want full affect then it's a little hint to do it too.

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