change [luke]

two days before

"You can't wear the same dress twice? Isn't that like illegal?!"

I huffed throwing the black dress over into the corner of my room. Michael had come over to help me choose an outfit for the small party Melissa was throwing but instead of actually helping me, he was insulting nearly every piece of clothing I owned.

"Did your mom buy that for your thirteenth birthday?" Michael picked up a pink dress with two fingers holding it at arms length. He scrunched up his nose at the soft pink fabric and the bouncy design.

"No I wore that to my first Jonas Brothers concert" I snipped, grabbing the dress that was so precious to me out of his grip. Michael held his two hands up in defence. We kept sorting through the closet making a messy mountain of clothes beside us. Shirts were on the bed, on the floor, dresses were scattered all over the rug, it was a mess. A loud gasp escaped Michael's lips and he turned to face me with a big smile etched across his face.

He held up a below the knee, bodycon dress in white that had a cutout on the back. I raised an eyebrow. Originally I bought this dress for a sweet sixteenth but I ended up not going to the party, but in my opinion it was far too formal.

"Michael, that's way too fancy" I snorted feeling the material. It was probably the best dress I owned.

"Are you serious? This is Australia. This is a dinner party, we don't do casual. Calum's sister bought a new outfit for this party. She's wearing big heels and all that girly shit too!"

I snorted but kept my eyes on the dress.

"I'll try it on" I said. Michael smiled widely and shoved the dress into my hands.

Michael got his way and I wore the dress with a pair of red heels. He said I looked really hot but then said to pretend he never said it because it was like he was telling his sister she looked hot.

It was now half way through the night and I was sitting on a stool in the kitchen with Michael, Calum, Ashton and Calum's sister Mali. She was nice and she complimented me on my dress sense which was a new thing for me because no one ever complimented me on anything. But Luke, he was a no show. He didn't even text me back to say he wouldn't be coming. His mom and his brothers were here and they even said he should be coming over.

"We got you all dressed up for nothing" Michael huffed. I chuckled a little less humourusly than expected and stirred my drink with my straw.

"Maybe you should go over to the house and see whats up" Ashton suggested giving me a reassuring pat on the shoulder. I thought about it for a moment and decided that it would probably be the best thing to do.

"Yeah I will, cover for me okay?" I put my drink on the island and smoothened out my dress.

The walk to Luke's (all few steps) was nerve wrecking. I thought about all the negatives more than the positives, as usual. I thought about the things he may say to me when I walk into his house in a dress and heels. I thought about how he would react. I thought about what I would say. And everything I thought was a negative atom taking up space within my head.

I pushed the door open quietly, knowing Luke was home alone if he was even home, because his family were at the party. Their house was laid out pretty much the same as Melissa's. The stairs was in the middle of the house and the living room was to the left.

There was no noise or anything coming from either rooms so I took off my heels and set up stairs. All the room doors were closed apart from one and that's the room where a soft strumming of a guitar was coming from. My heart pounded in my chest, it was definitely Luke's room.

I walked quietly towards the room, waiting outside the door to listen what he was singing.

"She sleeps alone, my heart wants to come home, I wish I was, I wish I was, beside you"

Luke sang with actual emotion in his voice, like he was going to break any minute. And I thought he would. I thought he'd break down in tears. There was a raspiness in his voice that could only be passion. He sang the last few chords of the song and sighed.

I stepped into his room and clapped timidly. His head craned around and he stared at me dumbfoundly before blushing deeply.

"That was great Luke" I smiled, sitting on the window ledge beside him.

He forced a smile and played with the strings of his guitar.

"If you didn't want to come tonight you could have told me, I would have understood" I murmured, playing with the sleeve of my dress. He sighed again, setting down his guitar on the bed.

"I did baby, I really did but I just- I, couldn't" He mumbled scratching the back of his neck. I kept my head low.

"I couldn't go in there and face you for the last time"

My ears perked up.

"What do you mean for the last time?"

Luke closed his eyes and sucked in a deep breath.

"Were leaving sooner than expected. We're leaving on Monday"

And I swear to god time stopped. My heart began to hammer wildly in my chest, like a beast trying to break free. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack. The walls in Luke's dimly lit room started to cave in.

"Aimi, are you ok?" Luke edged closer, grabbing my two shoulders, a worried look drawn all over his face. I nodded quickly, opening the bedroom window and breathing through it. I felt Luke pat my back and rub soothing circles.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner" I gasped. He frowned pulling me into his lap. My breathing had become more regular again.

"I couldn't do it Aimi, I don't even want to leave you"

"So what? Were you going to just leave?"

Luke pouted.

"No, I was trying to buy some time. Maybe put off the trip"

I nodded, my breathing becoming regular again.

"So, what happens?"

"Aimi, I love you"

The panicked feeling returned making my breathing stop once again.

"No you don't Luke, you don't even know me that well"

"Aimi I've loved you since I saw you stumble out of your aunts car with a frown on your face. I've loved you since you called me out on my singing, with that beautiful smile. I've loved you since we played twenty questions on the beach and you laughed at my favourite movie. I've loved you since you came to our band practice and I got extremely jealous because it was Michael that invited you and not me. I've loved you since you came to that party and you had that little lost look on your face. I've loved you since I told you I liked you. I've loved you through all of that, and don't tell me I don't know what love is because I do. And I love you Aimi Reynolds, god dammit I love you so much"

I didn't even reply to him I just grabbed his face and pressed my lips onto his. He reacted immediately and rested his hand on my waist. I crawled over and straddled his lap running my hands through his hair. Our tongues danced as he placed both his hands on my behind pulling me closer to him. He slowed down the kiss and rested his hand on the side of my cheek.

It was enthrawling.

"I think I love you too Luke"

He pressed his forehead against mine and smiled.

"Fuck London, that's what FaceTime was made for"

Luke laughed loudly and pulled me into his chest.

And that's where I fell asleep. Safely held in Luke's embrace. And I did love him.

I loved Luke Hemmings.

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