Just Pretend, cb {completed}

60

*for good*

C O R B Y N

Jonah and Ashley went home, it's like 4AM and she's still asleep, however she moved a lot. She's sleeping on her side with one of her legs propped on top of the blanket. Just like how she always used to sleep with me.

I didnt know i was meeting with Christina, and that's the truth. But everything after that was completely my fault. I cheated on Sierra with Christina, more than once.

I believed the stupid pictures that my management showed me, but i should've known better that Sierra would never cheat on me.

I'm completely in the wrong and they all have every right to be mad at me. I haven't told them why i left and i probably shouldn't, but i hate this. I hate that i got drunk and i hate that i'm so stupid.

Getting drunk isn't an excuse for being unfaithful to Sierra. The whole time i was worried about her doing the cheating, but it was the other way around. It was me cheating. After i had previously told her numerous times that i would never.

I lied to her.

I kissed Christina to get back at Sierra for something that wasn't even true. It's my fault. Words don't describe how awful i feel for driving her to do this.

"You haven't blinked in the past five minutes." Luke's voice startles me, I was just staring into the distance, thinking about how i really messed this one up.

"Just thinking." I blink my eyes shut, a tear escaping the corner of my eye. I don't ever wanna see her in this state again. Ever. Nor do i ever want to be the cause of her pain.

"Thinking's dangerous." Luke throws a pink comforter over Sierra, then sits on the seat beside her.

Sierra always says that to me.

"Yeah, Dude i'm sorry-"

"I'm not the one that's in love with you." He looks down at Sierra sleeping. "Your excuse better be good."

"I don't have an excuse other then i was being a dick." I say truthfully, licking my teeth. I should probably tell them that i cheated; but i don't want too.

"At least you can admit it. Hey, when are you going to start admitting that Sierra will always be out of your league?" Louie stretches, he must've just woke up.

"I've always admitted that from the start." I look down, playing with the rips in my jeans.

"Bullshit-" Louie sniggers

"Not right now, Corbyn you should go-" Luke looks towards me. I'm not leaving.

"I'm not leaving her." I cut him off quickly, my voice unintentionally raising.

"Well she won't be up for a while and she's going straight home when she is, so how about you go home? I'll see you out." Louie stands up.

"She lives with me?" I raise my eyebrows at him, He shrugs his shoulders and i stay put. I need to apologize as soon as she wakes up.

"Why do you walk over her every chance you get?" Louie asks, looking at her. Because i'm a dildo.

"Cause i'm stupid. You guys want anything? I'm going to get air." I stand up, Sierra rolling onto her stomach. I need to cry but i don't want to cry in front of them. They'll just ridicule me.

"No." Louie rolls his eyes at me. They all have every right to be mad at me.

"Luke?" I look towards him, he's pissed, like really fucking mad. I completely understand.