MY ONE SHOTS

My Greatest Challenge

"𝙈𝙮 𝙂𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙚"
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I was all alone, a girl with a broken heart.
He came into my life, tried to fix me.
I was shattered and drifting apart.
He picked up the pieces and stucked them together, flawlessly.
I was blinded by the love he showed me,
I trusted him, having no worries.
Little did I know that, he was also the one to break me.
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My name is Caitlyn Collier and four years ago, I met the most perfect guy—or so I thought.

My life wasn't close to the word "perfect". Ever since I started my fourth year in college, my life has been miserable and fucked up.

Before I go to school, go home, eat or sleep, I'd always see my parents fighting to the point that, they're already hurting each other, physically and emotionally.

It's like deja vu.

My life has always been like that and I got so used to it. I got the hang of it and felt nothing.

I was empty and pretty much emotionless. I was tired of the same thing happening over and over again. So tired to the point that, I couldn't even feel pain anymore. I was too numb.

I promised myself that, if I could find myself the "perfect" guy, I won't be like them, like my parents who'd always fight each and every day. I promised that, I will love and cherish him. But of course, that'll only be my imagination and will forever be an "If ever".

Those were the words I kept telling myself but everything changed when I met him. Dwayne Fabrique, a new guy who happened to work at a cafe I always go to near my school.

Soft and olive toned skin, big round hazel eyes, thick eyebrows, pointy nose, dark lashes, red heart-shaped lips and two cute dimples whenever he smiles.

In short, he was every girl's dream. He had those insanely descriptions that every perfect guy has.

We started off by being friends, developed feelings for each other then he started courting me. The next thing I knew was me saying yes to him. I loved him so much and he did too. We went on for two years, he proposed and we both decided to move in together. He taught me how to love. He fixed every little broken piece my heart left. He was my happiness and I was so sure that he was the "one".

We were so happy but then, everything changed after that one night.

The night when we first fought.

I was damn hurt. I felt daggers in my heart, hurting me continously. I ran out of the house that night, crying.

Anger, pain and sadness. Those three were the feeling that I've felt, all at the same time.

We started fighting more and more now which wasn't normal anymore. Our relationship was toxic.

And then, painful memories flashbacked. Memories of my parents hurting each other, physically and emotionally.

I smiled weakly as I remember the promise I made back then. The promise of myself, finding the perfect guy and to not imitate my parents. I swore to myself that I will never be like them but—I failed.

Dwayne started dating girls while we were in a relationship. It hurted me so much. I was hysterical when I confronted him when I found out about it. We fought, over and over again until.... he couldn't take it anymore.

For the first time, he cried. Not for me, he cried because of how suffocating I was to him. He cried because.... he didn't love me and said that, I've changed.

He broke off our engagement. I cried and begged him to stay but it was no use.

And there I was alone, again.

Ever since that day, I started having emotional problems and went crazy. I've having suicidal thoughts and wanted to end my miserable life.

But Kim, my best friend, stopped me. She helped and even took me to see a psychiatrist.

The passed few years has been rough but I was able to get through it. I was able to fix myself with their help. I felt a lot better but, the pain that I've felt will always be there.

He was getting married and even met up with me to invite me. We never had a proper closure so when we met up, he apologized a dozen of times and who was I to not forgive him?

I know that we can never bring back the happy days while we were together. All I can do now is to move on and be happy for him. Accepting and moving on was one of the things I've learned while healing.

Our love was the greatest challenge that's ever happened. If not for him, I won't be who I am now.He was my greatest challenge.

And deep down, I know that he'll forever hold a place in my heart.
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I was all alone, a girl with a broken heart.
He came into my life, tried to fix me.
I was shattered and drifting apart.
He picked up the pieces and stucked them together, flawlessly.
I was blinded by the love he showed me,
I trusted him, having no worries.
Little did I know that, he was also the one to break me.
Accepting and moving on is what I've done,
He was the greatest challenge that'll forever hold a piece in my heart.

—𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓔𝓷𝓭—