MY ONE SHOTS

Karma

"𝙈𝙮 𝙠𝙖𝙧𝙢𝙖"𝓶𝓪𝓭𝓭𝓲𝓮[𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘰𝘭𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘸𝘦a𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴. 𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘬.]. ."Ma, penge pera. May babayaran kami sa school." saad ko.
Nakatayo ako sa harap ni Mama at nakapamulsang nakatingin sakanya habang siya nagtutupi. Sa totoo lang, naubos na allowance ko kaya nagsisinungaling nalang akong may group project para may pera ako mamaya pang-gala namin ng mga kaibigan ko.

"Jax, anak. Magkano ang kailangan mo? Marami kasing bayarin ngayon kaya medyo short tayo. Nahihirapan akong—"

"Wala akong pake! 500 ang kailangan ko, bukas na yon kaya kailangan ko na siya ngayon." masungit kong saad, walang pake sa mga sinabi niya.

Malungkot siyang tumingin saakin, ang mga mata ay parang naluluha na. Napabuntong hininga siya at inabot sakin ang pera. Mabilis kong hinablot iyon sa kamay niya at lumabas na sa silid.

"Pre, ano tuloy ba mamaya?"

"Oo. Sure kang sasama ka? Hindi ba't may jowa kana, pre?" tanong ni Liam.
"Pfft. Hinding hindi ko magugustuhan ang panget na yon, Liam. Kaya nga sasama ako ngayon para mag-hanap ng chixx, sawa nako kay Lauren. Napaka-clingy masyado, nakakainis." saad ko, naaalala ang nakakadiring si Lauren na sunod ng sunod sakin. Kahit kailang hindi ko magugustuhan ang panget na 'yon.

"Ano, tara na ba? Noah, bat nakatulala ka jan? Malalim iniisip mo, pre?" pang-aasar ko kay Noah.

Masama akong tinignan nito at naunang mag-lakad palayo. Nagkibit-balikat nalang ako at sinundan sila papunta sa bar. As always, naloko namin ang bouncer don kaya madali kaming nakapasok.

Lumawak ang ngisi ko nang bumungad ang nakakasilaw na neon lights at ang nakakabinging musika na umaalingawngaw sa buong bar.

"Woooh! Let's go dance!" sigaw ni Finn at hinila kami sa dance floor.

Nasa gitna kami ng dance floor at sumasayaw nang mahagip ng mata ko ang isang magandang babae, damn she's hot.

Masaya siyang nakikipag-tawanan sa mga kaibigan niya habang sumasayaw. Her hands on her head, swaying her body. Damn gorgeous, fuck!

Hindi ko na napigilan at pumunta sa likod niya, nag-simula ring sumayaw.

"Hey there." I whispered.

She stiffened and confronted me. "Hi, can I help you?" she asked curiously.

"Wala naman. I thought you looked gorgeous so I went near you." I honestly answered. I saw her blush which made me grin.

Hinawakan ko siya sa bewang at sinayaw.

"Do you have a girlfriend?" tanong nito na ikina-gulat ko.

Without hesitation, "None." sagot ko, I was planning to break up with Lauren anyway.

For a second, I saw hatred and anger in her eyes ngunit napalitan rin ng maamong mukha, malaki ang mga ngiti.

"That's great! I'll give you my number, text me." anito at kinuha ang cellphone.I took mine out too and started putting her number down on my contact list, she did the same. We danced 'til morning then decided to go home.￣￣"Saan ka nanggaling, Jax?! Alam mo bang halos atakihin ako sa puso sa sobrang pag-aalala sayo, jusko!" sabi nito at hinawakan ako sa balikat.

Ngumiwi ako at inalis ang pag-kakahawak saakin.

"Wag mo nga akong hawakan. Nag-bar kami nila Noah, tss." sambit ko at deretso nag-lakad para kumuha ng tubig.

Fuck. I feel dizzy, na-sobrahan ata ang pag-inom ko.

"Bar?! Saan ka naman nakakuha ng pera?"

Hindi ko siya pinansin at nag-patuloy sa pag-inom ng tubig.

"Kinakausap kita, Jackson! Saan ka kumuha ng pera at umaalis ka ng 'di ko alam? Ang bata bata mo pa para mag-bar!"

"Shut the fuck up! Pagod ako, wag mo 'kong guluhin!" malamig kong saad at pumunta sa aking kwarto, ni-lock at nahiga.

Damn that old hag, lagi nalang panggulo sa buhay ko. Sana namatay nalang siya nang magawa ko na ang gusto ko. Sana mawala na siya para maging malaya na ako.

*𝘉𝘌𝘌𝘗*

Binuksan ko ang aking cellphone nang mag-vibrate ito at nakitang nag-chat si Lauren at Akeisha—ang magandang babae na nakilala ko kanina sa Bar.

I opened Akeisha's text message first, ignoring Lauren's. She texted me goodnight so I texted her goodnight as well with a heart emoticon.￣￣"Hi, Jaxxy. Good morning!" bati ni Lauren, halatang hinihintay ako.

As usual, she was wearing her nerdy outfit. Sa pag-tingin ko palang sakanya ay halos gusto ko ng sumuka sa pandidiri. If not for her brains, I wouldn't even date her!

"Listen, Lauren. Stop following or waiting for me, it's embarrassing." I disgustingly said.Her eyes started to tear up and was about to cry, making me roll my eyes.

"Don't cry in public, you're embarrassing me. You know what? Let's break up. I'm tired of you anyway." walang awa kong sinabi at nag-lakad palayo.

"N-no, Jax. W-wait please! I'll do it, I won't bother you, just don't leave me! Mahal kita, J-jax!" rinig kong sigaw niya, hindi ako nag-patinag at nag-patuloy sa paglalakad.

Ever since that day, she started to avoid me which made me quite happy. Months passed quite nicely, me and Akeisha started dating—I was serious about my relationship with her, damn I love her so much. We started to go on for like—4 months?

 Medyo matagal na 'rin. Araw araw ay lalabas kami, date and stuff. I couldn't ask for more until.... all of my happiness faded.

"May sakit ang Mama mo sa puso for almost five years now. Last time, pumunta siya dito for a check-up. I think she would've lasted like ten years but due to stress and exhaustion, napa-iksi ang buhay nito and this happened." umiiling at malungkot na sabi ng Doctor habang nakatingin kay Mama.

I was crying, devastated. Damn, naaalala ko ang mga sinabi at ginawa ko sakanya noon. How I treated her like nothing, how I called her with disrespectful names, how I lied to her face. Fuck, this is my fault. All of this, kasalanan ko 'to.

"I-I'm sorry, Mama. I'm sorry for not being a good son to you. I'm sorry if I was a jerk. I'm sorry." umiiling ko sabi habang umiiyal, hawak hawak ang kanyang kamay.

Ilang minuto ako nag-stay sa hospital at napag-isipan na umuwi nang medyo gumagabi na. I was tired, in pain and sad. I called Akeisha and asked her to meet up. Maybe I could cheer up if I talk to her. Atleast, I still have someone who loves and cares for me.

We agreed on meeting up at @4pm but I came 30 minutes before our meeting time. Gusto kong mag-pahangin. Nag-lakad lakad muna ako at may nakitang café kaya pinasok ko ito at naupo sa bakanteng silya.

"What if he finds out, Noah? Anong gagawin natin?" I heard a girl whispering, hindi ko sila inintindi at um-order ng kape.

Ilang minuto ang lumipas at nakabalik ang waitress, dala dala ang aking kape."Thank you." I mouthed at her and smiled.

Humigop ako dito at nakatingin sa mga taong dumadaan sa labas nang marknig muli ang dalawang nag-uusap, hindi na napigilan at nakinig.

"I don't give a fuck, Keish. That man is a bastard!" nangangalaiti na sambit nung lalaki.Napalingon ako nang maaning kung kanino ang mga boses na 'yon. My eyes widened when I saw Noah kissing Akeisha.

A-ano ang ibig nilang sabihin? I was boiled with anger. Lumapit ako sakanya sakanila at,

"What the fuck, dude?!!" sigaw ko dito, hindi na napigilan ang galit at sinuntok siya.

Malakas ang naging suntok ko, making him fall on the ground—breaking the table behind himHe smiled devilishly and licked the blood that was on his lower lip, caused by the punch I did."Oh? Mukhang napaaga ata ang pag-aamin natin, Akeisha—or should I say, Lauren?"
humalakhak ito habang nakatingin kay Akeisha.

I looked at her, her eyes were cold as she looked at me directly in the eyes."Totoo ba?" mahinahon kong sabi.

Hindi niya ako sinagot at tinignan ako, mga mata'y pinaghalong awa at galit.

"Fucking answer me, totoo ba?!" sigaw ko sakanya.

"Yes. It was all an act, Jax. You cheated on me. You used me. This? This was revenge! You bastard, you heartless monster. Wala kang karapatan masaktan ngayon, you should've thought about what you did before doing it." malamig nitong saad at lumapit kay Noah, inaalalayan itong tumayo.

"It was planned, dude. The night when we went to the bar, the meet-up or should I say 'set-up' that we did that night, a fucking act for a fucking bastard." ani Noah.

I was stunned, 'di makapaniwala na mag-kasabwat silang dalawa.

"B-bakit? Bakit ikaw Noah? Bakit niyo ginawa 'to?!" galit kong sigaw na naging dahilan para mapapikit sila sa lakas ng sigaw ko.

"Fuck you, don't shout. Wala kang karapatan! You knew I liked Lauren, Jax. I liked her but I thought you did too—nag-paraya ako para sayo pero ano ginawa mo?!" anito at lumapit saakin, matalim ang tingin.

I clenched both of my fists and jaw, I wanted to punch him so bad but, I feel tired. Napapagod na ako. Ang sakit, tangina.

"Fuck you, both of you." saad ko bago lumabas ng café.

Wala ako sa sariling nag-lalakad sa daan, paligoy-ligoy sa sobrang hilo—I received too much pain today. My mom died because of me. My ex-girlfriend and best friend decided to take revenge, fuck!

This is all my fault, lahat 'to nag-simula dahil sa kagaguhan ko. I was so reckless and stupid—only regretting all of these when it was already too late. Kung naging mabuti ako, magiging maayos kaya ang lahat?

 Kung inayos ko ba ang sarili ko, mangyayari kaya ang lahat ng ito? In the end, I only regretted it. Lagi namang ganon, ang pagsisisi'y laging nasa dulo. I regretted it, all of what I did when it was too late.

What the fuck is this? Karma? Is this my karma for all of the shits I've done? Is this my karma for not treasuring the people around me? Is this my karma for being a stupid bastard? Damn it!Wala ako sa aking sarili. I'm losing my mind, I walked and walked, not caring about the things and peole around me. I was dumbfounded.

Natigil ako sa pag-iisip nang mapagtanto na nasa gitna ako ng kalsada.*𝘉𝘌𝘌𝘗 𝘉𝘌𝘌𝘗*

"Watch out!" rinig kong sigaw but before I could even react, my vision went black.Time started to stop running. Death has come to take me. This is 𝘮𝘺 𝘬𝘢𝘳𝘮𝘢.

Karma really is a bitch.