The Musical | Ricky Bowen × Reader

Conflicted

"We looked at each other a little too long to be 'just friends.'"

- Unknown

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The next morning, I wake up to the sound of soft snores. I jolt out of bed, momentarily forgetting where I am. I look to my right, and see Ricky lying on the floor with a pillow and a blanket that barely reaches his feet. 

Memories of yesterday flood into my mind. It's weird how one minute your life is going pretty well, and the next; it's one big shit show. Alright, maybe I'm being a bit dramatic. Besides the fight with my parents, everything is going relatively okay. Especially with the play. After a couple hours of listening to all the soundtracks, and many of Ricky's complaints, we finally picked a song for our callback. Of course, we'd have to work out the choreography with Carlos, but it's pretty much all sorted out. Now it's a matter of choosing what scene we're going to act out—which I'm not too worried about. 

What I am worried about is where I'm going to stay tonight. As kind as Ricky is, I could never ask him to stay another night. That would be too much, especially since we've only known each other for about a week, but it doesn't feel that way—it feels like much longer. We've grown so close in such a short amount of time, and I'm beyond happy to have met him. I still don't know how i feel about him, though. After our 'moment' yesterday, I feel a little conflicted. Before that, I would have never thought about him as more than a friend, but now, I'm not so sure.  

PLEASE READ: heyyy lovelies! i am so, so sorry i haven't uploaded in a while, but some stuff came up, and i've had no time to. that's why this chapter is very short. the next chapter will definitely make up for this. i promise! anyway, i hope you enjoyed it! see ya in the next one! mwah!

- Ella <3