Taylor Swift / Kaylor - Begin Again

Chapter Six

Ellie's POV

Linda explained to me what was happening, it was pretty much the same as what Taylor had told me. I was already counting down the days. Not long until I got out of this hell hole. Linda told me to be on my best behaviour at all times, when here and when I move into Taylor's. But, I didn't really know what she meant by that. As soon as I'm out of here, I won't have to deal with those bullies, which will mean I won't have anything to retaliate to. For some reason, Linda just took a disliking to me. I have no idea what I done. But it doesn't bother me anymore, she's a bitter woman who doesn't like her job.

*about a week later"

I'd spent most of my weekend just playing the guitar and playing around with lyrics. So far, I wasn't really getting anywhere with the lyrics. I put my guitar down and laid back on my bed. I felt so relaxed until someone came charging into my bedroom. I knew who it was.

"Ellieeee?"

"Yes Bella?" I chuckled as I sat up and helped her onto my bed.

"Are you going to live with Taylor?"

"I most certainly am!"

"But what about me. I won't see you again."

"Of course you will Bella, I'll come back and visit, and I'm sure Taylor will let you round and visit."

"Do you promise?"

"I promise." I kissed Bella's forehead and let her snuggle into me.

"I want to be like you when I grow up Bella."

She really wouldn't want to be me. No way. I couldn't tell her that. She was far to young and innocent to know what a cruel world this really is.

"Well hopefully you'll do a good job of being like me eh?"

"Can you sing to me please Ellie?"

"Yeah."

I sat up and got my guitar and slowly started strumming.

" Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honeyIf you could stay like that
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow upJust stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up,
never grow up"

"Ellie, Bella, dinner!" Linda pokes her head round the door.

I pick Bella up of my bed and take her hand as we walk downstairs.

We walked into the dining room and took our usual seats. The seats that isolated us from everyone else. The end of the table seats.

Bella sat down and started talking to her friends. I just watched at everyone socialising, wishing I was able to do that without being scared.

I brushed away the thoughts and started putting food on my plate. I was feeling extra hungry tonight.

"You sure you really wanna put that much food on your plate Ellie? You're looking a little on the podgy side." Alice said, one of the "lovely" girls here.

"Yeah don't take all the food we would like some too you know." Natalie added. Both of them giggling to each other.

After deciding they were right I put back some stuff and just stuck to the light food, in hope that no more snide remarks would be made.

"Ew, Ellie germs, don't eat it." Natalie laughed.

I just kept my head down and carried on eating.

"You're all very mean. It doesn't matter anyway, Ellie is going to live with Taylor Swift and she will be able to eat loads and lots of sweets too." Bella smiles, unaware that she was the only one that knew about Taylor adopting me.

"Ha, you're both as deluded as each other. Taylor would never adopt a scum like you Ellie. You're a useless, fat waste of space. Get out of fantasy land you absolute twat."

"She's telling the truth thanks." I said. I wanted to stand up for myself properly, but I was scared of the consequences.

"Oh yeah and I'm secretly a unicorn. Shut up Ellie, stop with you're bullshitting. Your mother didn't want you, neither did your dad, and nor does Taylor. She wouldn't want to adopt some disgusting insect like you. You're so fucked up Ellie. You may aswell be dead, just like your brother and just like your mum. Your mum only killed herself to get away from you. If I had a daughter like you I'd be ashamed and would probably kill myself too."

I stood up from my seat, making it fly backwards. My jaw was clenched tight, as was my fists.

"You take that back." I said in a tense way.

"Or what? You'll go tell your mommy on me. Oh wait, you don't have one do you."

"Let me remind you, Alice, you don't either."

Alice's fist swung towards my jaw, making me freeze from shock. I was definitely not a fighting or violent person, but I knew I had to stand up for myself this time. I found myself throwing punches and kicks back, completely lashing out.

"What is all this commotion?!" Linda shouted as she came running in dragging us apart.

"That scum seems to believe Taylor Swift is actually gonna adopt her, letting everyone feed off her pathetic lies."

"Actually Alice, Taylor is adopting Ellie. I just got of the phone with her, and she'll be moving there in a week. I suggest you all settle down, shut up and eat your dinner."

I was shocked that Linda didn't tell me off.. And that she kind off stood up for me.

Once I was sat back in my seat, I realised I wasn't particularly feeling hungry anymore, Alice's and Natalie's venomous words swirling inside my head. Instead of eating, I went up to my bedroom.

I found my usual blade, and dragged it across my arms, letting the crimson blood run freely down it as it seeped out the slits. I cried and cried as I thought about the words they had said to me. I am fucked up. I should be dead. I am scum. My brother and mom should be living, not me.

I stood up and got to my medication that I had to take daily for god knows how many mental health conditions. But this time, it wasn't for that. I searched under my bed for a bottle of vodka I had managed to hide for a while.

Slowly unscrewing the lid, I force the tablets into my mouth and take a large gulp of the vodka. The burning liquid coming into harsh contact with my throat as I swollowed.

I was putting an end to this, I didn't want to cause trouble for Taylor.

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The attached picture is kinda how I imagine Ellie to look. Idk who it is I just found it on Google :)