TONI POV:
"Mom?" I walk into the kitchen. "What's up sweetheart?" Mom ask quietly. "Can I ask you something? It's definitely going to make us both uncomfortable." I ask quietly. She looks at me. "I really don't want to have sex, but Cheryl does..." I say really awkwardly. "She's not forcing you to do anything right?" I shake my head. "No! It's just I don't really like it." I say. "I've come to the conclusion that I'm asexual, but I know Cheryl wants to have sex and she knows that if I ever get uncomfortable that we can stop and we have! And I don't really get it, but Cheryl said that I should... you know." I rub the counter awkwardly. "Masturbate?" I nod. "I don't like it. I don't find it satisfying." I whisper. "When did you..." I look down. "One night when Veronica was out doing some guy." I say cringing a little. "Isn't she with Archie?" I smile. "Yeah! They broke up for like a week and Veronica just got drunk and tried to forget." I whisper. "Well, when you did what you did, you didn't find it satisfying?" I shake my head. "Not one bit. I just don't want Cheryl to feel like I'm forcing her to not have sex, I just I don't get it and she understands that but I feel like I'm holding her back. I don't want to do that to her." I whisper. "Well if she understands than I think she's ok with it." I shrug. "Sometimes she's said she was ok with some and than proceeds to actually not be ok with whatever she said she was ok with for a week and eventually blows! Trust me I do the same thing!" Mom takes my hands. "Have an honest conversation with her about it. I think no matter what you guys will be ok." I nod. "Thanks. It's just I feel bad." She smiles. "She loves you more than anyone in the world and honestly I think she would do anything for you except murder." We both laugh. "Yeah. You're right!" I try to convince myself. "I've seen the way she looks at you." I nod. "I'm gonna go talk to her." I whisper getting up.
"Cheryl, c-can we talk?" Cheryl looks at me. "Everything ok?" I sit on the bed. "Yeah, I just want to talk about our sex life." I say quietly. She nods. "I feel like I'm holding you back." I whisper. "What do you mean?" She ask quietly. "Since I really don't enjoy sex I feel like I'm holding you back." I tell her. "And you're not the best at telling me that." I say awkwardly. "Because you're not. Honestly, I like not having sex. I like that because it means we can actually have conversations and we don't have this need to have sex." She smiles. "And honestly it's nice, I feel more love between us. I love when we spend hours talking about the most randomness things we can think of. I love when we make out and I don't feel forced to put out for you. I love how if we want to have sex and you get uncomfortable we stop or when I get uncomfortable we stop! I love how we spend ours on your math homework because you don't understand it, I love when we cuddle when I come visit you. I love when we go out for coffee at that hipster cafe. I love when we fight over the stupidest things. As long as I'm spending time with you I don't care." She rants for about ten minutes about how much she loves me. "I love our conversations about our future the most. Because I love you." She whispers. "I love you Toni Topaz." She kisses me. "I love you too." I whisper back. "Oh! I love watching you play basketball. I also love pretending like I know what's happening." We both laugh. "I love when you pretend to listen to me talk for hours on end about basketball." I kiss her. "I really have no idea what you talking about most of the time." I smile and kiss her. "I love you." I whisper. "I love you too." She whispers. "So I'm not holding you back sexually?" She smiles. "No! I like sex! But it's not my favorite part of our relationship." I smile. "You sure?" I ask quietly. "Yes." She smiles. "Really?" She nods. "Why don't you believe me?" She ask quietly. "I don't know." I shrug. "It's just I really don't want to hurt you." She smiles.
"I'll see you next weekend." I kiss Cheryl's cheek. "I love you." I whisper. "I love you too baby." She kisses me. "I'm sorry I pretty much slept for 3 days straight." I whisper. She smiles. "You're cute when you sleep and we talk every day anyways." I kiss her again. "Call me when you get there." She whispers. We kiss a few times. "I'll see you later." I get into my truck. "Ready?" I ask Veronica. Whenever I or Veronica wants to go home we usually go together because it's easier and cheaper and less gas is used. "Yeah." I start the truck and drive off. "How was your Thanksgiving?" She ask quietly. "Fine. My parents were doing everything not to kill each other, but weirdly that was the funniest thing I've ever seen." We both laugh. "What happened?" She ask quietly. "Besides the fact your parents are on the brink of a divorce." I smile. "Well, anytime my dad would say anything mom didn't like she would find a away to be offended. I really want them to make it. I love them both, I don't know what I would do if they actually got a divorce." I whisper. "Why are you so worried about it?" She ask quietly. "Because it's not the first time, my parents have always been like this. I hate seeing them like this. That's why I mostly hang out with Cheryl when I'm home." I whisper.
Veronica and I walk into our dorm room. "You need to call Cheryl." I lie on the bed. "In a minute." I whisper slowly falling asleep.
CHERYL POV:
I throw a fry at Fangs. "Why do you do that?" He ask laughing quietly. "I don't know man." We both smile. "I know why you hang out with me." He whispers. "Because we're both gay and won't fall for each other?" He smiles. "No! Because you had to be friends with me and now you are actually friends with me." I smile. "Yeah." My phone rings. "It's Toni." I pick it up. "Hey babe!" I smile. "It's Veronica." Veronica says quietly. "Is everything ok?" I ask quietly. "Oh! Yeah! Toni fell asleep as soon as we got here and I know you told her to call you when we got here." I smile. "Cool." I say awkwardly. "I'm gonna hang up now." I nod. "Bye." We both hang up and I look at Fangs. "That was Veronica. Toni fell asleep." I smile.
