Love, Kookie

Letter # 11

"Hey again, Cheese

Remember the first time I got drunk and I called you in the middle of the night? I only bring it up because I'm pretty sure I'm very much on the verge of wasted right now and J-Hope keeps trying to take the pencil from my hand to stop me from saying something embarrassing.

I've always wondered, what exactly did I say to you that night? You told me I cried a lot and told you I loved you but I'm sure there was more than that. From what J-Hope has told me so far, I don't seem to be an entirely sappy and romantic drunk. He says that I'm

hiii cheese girl I'm your hope, you're my hope, I'm j-hope. JK. Does. Not. Shut. Up. About. You. Your man is really pissy and needy when he's drunk and also I stole his pencil so he's whining and jostling me anyway byeee

Sorry about that. I would scribble it out but now you'll get a glimpse of what it's like to live with a bunch of guys for so long. I'm not pissy, I promise. I'm perfect. That's such a weird word, don't you think? I miss youuu.

Love, Kookie"

"Well, that's a lot different from the last one. You don't think he was drinking in his sorrows, do you?"

"No. He's smarter than that. He only gets drunk when there's something to celebrate." I love that about him. He was so smart, always telling me that sadness and alcohol were not a good mix.

"So what is he.... what was he celebrating the first time he drunk called you?" Jimin asks.

The memory almost makes me laugh.

"Kookie? It's nearly 2 in the morning? Everything ok?"

"You...you are just so hot, you know that?" He slurred his words. I knew right away that this would be a fun conversation.

"Oh yeah?" I giggled.

"Yeah, I just, I love you. Yeah. Lanaaaaaa?" He made muffled noises through the phone.

"Kookie? Are you crying?" I was concerned but more amused, of course. How could I not be?

"Yeah, I'm just so happy. Jin finally admitted he loved me."

I couldn't contain my laughter after that. "That's what you're celebrating?"

"Yeah, Jin took me out. I think he loves you more, though. I told him that he could suck it though because he doesn't get to see you naked." I can hear his smirk through the phone.

"Jeon Jungkook! I will break up with you right now!" Though I wasn't out with him, I felt the embarrassment at home in bed all the same.

"You wouldn't. You love me too much. Can I come over?"

"Nope, you're Jin's problem now. He got you into this mess. Can I go back to bed now?" I rubbed my temples.

"Tell me you love me." He pouted like a baby.

"Jungkook, I love you." I sighed.

"Louder!" He screamed into my ear.

"Ugh, fine." I brought the phone right next to my mouth and shouted loud enough to wake the neighbors. "KOOK, I LOVE YOU!"

"wOoOoooOOOOO!" He shouted on the other end of the line. "She loves me!"

I hung up the phone and went back to bed, thinking about just how much I really did love my boyfriend.

"What a drama queen." Jimin rolls his eyes.

"Yeah, you could say that." I smile.

"Have you called him?" He asks hesitantly.

I feel the color leave my face. What kind of joke is that? "W-what?"

"I mean, I know it goes to voicemail." Jimin says sheepishly. "But I like to hear his voice."

"Oh." I had never tried calling him. I'd gotten used to the fact that he couldn't answer before it ever occurred to me. Shakily, I tap on his contact and bring the phone to my ear.

"Hey, you've reached Jungkook. Sorry I can't answer right now, I'm probably with Lana. Maybe call her, or don't bother us. Catch ya later."

A laugh escapes my mouth as the tears start. "I thought he would've changed it." I explain. "I don't know why, I just...."

"Hey, I'll leave you alone." He gets up and walks out, latching the door behind him. My hands still shaking, I press his contact again.

"Hey, you've reached Jungkook..."