Days Past WDW

Worth It

I got the book from Jonah. I promised myself I wouldn't cry. But here I am balling my eyes out on the couch alone with the book. Well I'm not alone I have my bear for help.The boys are at an interview and Eben is shopping. I hear the door open and laughing. Oh no there back. I try to wipe away the tears but it's of no use. The sadness is just too much the tears keep coming. I make a mad sprint to my bunk leaving everything behind. I make it, I'm face down in a pillow. I try to hide my tears. Maybe they will just leave me. I have no such luck. I hear them call my name. You know what, I don't care if they see me right now. This might be the last time they will ever see me. I'm going to die from a broken heart. Can you die from a broken heart? But I haven't fallen madly in love yet. Or got engaged or married or ran from the law, oh wait i've done the last one. But there's still a lot I haven't done.

"Amore?" Corbyn asks I take my face out of the pillow and look at them they're all crowded around holding the curtain back so they can see me. They see my tear stained face. "Come on."

They try to get me out of my bunk. They take my pillow and I grab another then they take it again.

"No, I need my pillow to soak up my tears. If not, I think I may cry a river." I say trying to get further into my bunk. They drag me out and I go onto the floor still crying.

"Why?" I ask out loud. "I mean It came out of nowhere."

"Shh it's ok." Corbyn says. Corbyn, Daniel and Jack are sitting on the floor with me. Jonah and Zach are standing there's not enough room on the floor for us all.

"But he was so young." I cry more.

"Who?" Jack asks.

"He didn't deserve that." I say putting my head in whoever shoulder is closest to me. "Why is the world so harsh?"

"Where is your bear?" Daniel asks. Jonah and Zach start looking around for it. I pull out my arm to briefly flail my arm towards where my bear is. My book's there too. Love is a lie. I cry harder. What have I become?

"Here," Zach hands me my bear. I hug the bear and barry my face in him. I grab someone's arm and hold on.

"Is this why your crying?" Jonah asks. I look up and see he is holding up the book. I nod my head. "Ok I know what to do." He shoos the other boy away except for Daniel because I still have his arm captive.

"I should have never read that book." I say I push his shoulder because it's his fault but then I put my head on his shoulder.

"Why is love so tragic?" The other boys are in different areas every once in a while they look over and check on me. Daniel is still trapped. "Why did they ever fall in love?"

"They loved each other and they knew the potential for tragedy-"

"I'm a grenade- '' I try to start the quote but he covers my mouth stopping the tragic words I was about to say.

"It was worth it to them. They loved it while it lasted."

"There's that word again, love. the thing that will betray us all."

"It will not betray you. Love is the best thing that ever can happen."

"Amm! I came as soon as they called." Eben says shocking me by busting through the door. He rushes to me with a bag in hand. He scoops me up and takes me to the couch. I hug my bear and keep quietly crying. He turns on the TV and puts it to my favorite show then he pulls out two pints of ice cream. I don't deserve my brother, or the others.

We talk and pretty soon I stop crying and I'm no longer sad. After a while the boys join us and we all enjoy the show.