Mean B*tches

Chapter 14: Sing

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Since I always start a chapter when Rosiana wakes up, I'll just start the chapter during the day and hope you enjoy :)

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I decided that today I wanted to go to Derek's house and meet his family. I couldn't wait to see his beautiful twin sisters and how cute they must be.

I sat with Carrie in the library during recess.

She gave me dirty looks to me and my friends these past days, so I wanted to confront to her and ask her why she is doing this.

As I tried to approach her, she started to talk. "Why are you trying to speak to me, peasant?!"

Her face was tired. She had dark bags under her eyes. Her face with acne, she looked terrifying. Why did she call me peasant? She should call herself that.

"I have a question I am wiling to ask you." I said and gave her a "bish whet?" face expression.

"Then say it. I don't have a lot of time."

I looked up at her and could tell she was angry.

"Why are you giving my friends and me dirty looks all the time? What did I ever do to you?"

She rolled her eyes at me pulled me down.

"The reason why I hate you and your friends is because I told you I liked him. I told you how much he meant to me. I told you how much I had a crush on him since 4th grade. I told you everything, and you went after him and dated him. I thought you were my friend, but I was wrong. I guess you can call me jealous but whatever. I really liked him Rosiana, I really liked him. I mean you two are so perfect together, it's like you were meant to be with each other until the end of time. I wanted it to be like that with me and him but he actually loved you instead. I thought he would treat me like I'm an angel that fell from above, like I'm a queen, like I'm the best thing that has ever happened to him, like I'm the most beautiful human being he has ever laid eyes on. But no. He treats you like an angel from above, he treats you like a queen, he treats you and only you like the best thing that has ever happened to him, he treats you like the most beautiful human being in the world. Not me, and it will never be me. Do you see now? Do you see why I envy you so much? Do you see how much I wish I was you? Do you even understand how much I wanted something to change my life forever, but that will never happen because he only wants you. He only wants your gorgeous face, your perfect brown hair, and your perfect marvelous eyes. Not me, not Carrie Sophia Loris. Not me."

She looked like she was about to cry.

I thought deeply about what she just said to me, I was shocked. Surprised. I didn't expect this to happen. I didn't expect to hurt her this much. I didn't expect to see her as if I took her soul out. I didn't expect to see her so sad and upset. I didn't want to take everything she had and crush it. I didn't know what to do. I feel like I'm only hurting people and hurting myself. I don't know how to stop it. But I have to.

"Rosiana? Are you crying? Because I should be the one crying, not you."

I picked my head up and looked at her.

"Sort of. it's just that... I don't want to hurt you, but I already did. I've hurt everyone and I don't know what to do. I want to stop it but I don't know how. I want people to be happy, not depressed. I want to find something that'll make you start bouncing off the walls. I want to make everything happy again. But I don't know how. Do you see my point, Carrie?" I asked her.

She scooted next to me on the floor.

"Yes. I still want you to be with Derek, you two don't deserve to end. Because it's so beautiful to see you be together. Believe me when I say that."