Mean B*tches

Chapter 21: Last Goodbye

>Natalie's POV<

This fucking slut actually listened to me. Seriously. She believes me. She believed me even though I beat her ass up and destroyed her. She believes me. What a stupid hoe. Hah just wait until she finds out the actual fucking truth, he'll finally be mine, forever. It'll be the last time, she'll ever say Goodbye to him.

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>Rosiana's POV<

It's Tuesday. The day I say goodbye. The day I say "See you later, alligator!" to that person. The day I let all my feelings, all my emotions pour out in front of him. All my happiness fading away. All my love I had that was starting to bloom, is now stopping and dropping to the floor. All I have is being forced out of me. All the pain, embarrassment, and truth is going away. It's going away forever, because there will never be anyone like him. Never. Ever. He'll just laugh and move on, maybe even forget about me.

I know now that I can't ever let something, something so stupid to take my heart and everything I had, away from me.

I'm going to be strong. I'm going to be independent. I can do this. I can show him I am better off without him. I can show him how happy I really am without him.

I know I can do it. I just have to have faith in myself. I need to trust myself. I need to know I can do it. I need to know what I actually can do.

I need to let him go. He already ruined me by cheating on me when I trusted him. I gave him happiness. I have him courage. I gave him whatever he desired. I gave him anything he ever needed.

He gave me love. But that love wasn't real love. It was fake and garbage love. He didn't give me the love I deserved. I gave him much more than he needed. I got shit. I got shit thrown at me, right in front of my face.

I know that it's over. I know that it's done. I know that I can now move on with strength. I know I can now move on with happiness. I know I can now move on with pride and compassion. I know I can now move on without fear. Because fear can go fuck itself.

Fear won't stop me from finding the one thing I need.

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I walk next to him sitting on the bench underneath the tree in the park. It was almost 5:00, which meant it would be very dark and gloomy soon.

His eyes were filled with warmth and comfort, like having hot chocolate in front of a fireplace during the winter.

This is so hard. I can't believe I'm saying it to him. I'm saying my last goodbye. I'm letting him go. I'm setting myself free. I'm moving on. I'm forgetting about what he's done to me. He can't hurt me or cheat on me again. He can't do anything that includes me anymore. I'm finally saying goodbye.

"Your eyes look so beautiful." He said and breaks me out of my thoughts.

"Thank you." I said.

I was about to go back into my head until he interupted.

"I remember that first day we met, it was the best day of my entire life."

Lier.

"Yeah I remember that day." I said quietly, not looking at him.

He moves my face to make me look at him.

"I remember when you fell down the stairs with Sara."

I couldn't help but giggle a little.

"That was pretty embarassing, especially when I had a huge crush on you at the time."

"I thought it was cute."

I looked at him and was confused.

"Cute? Hah, no."

"Well, anyways, what was your favorite memory with you and I?"

I thought for a second. There were so many memories I loved that he was in. I remember when he kept looking at me when we were in math. I remember he attempted to hold my hand in front of my parents, but he was too shy. I remember when one night he looked through my window while my family was sleeping.

"Hey I just wanted to tell you, I want to spend every minute and every second with you. Is that ok?" He said that night.

"Of course it is ok. Now go to sleep crazyass!" I said to him and then he kissed me and I went back to sleep.

That night I couldn't sleep because I had butterflies in my stomach, I felt loved and special.

I then decieded to answer him. "My favorite memory was all of them. Because nothing can replace them."

I mumbled something else but it was a good thing he didn't hear.

"I love them all too." He smiled.

I smiled too, a small one.

There was silence, dead slience for about a solid straight 7 minutes.

"Derek, I need to confront to you about something, and I know it's true." I said.

He looked at me and said "What is it?"

I took a deep breath, and closed my eyes.

"I know what you did. I know you've been using me. I know you've been lying to me. I know everything, and you didn't even know it, but now you do. You're cheating on me."

He stood up. His hands were up in the air, his face furious.

"WHAT THE FUCK! WHO TOLD YOU THIS?!? TELL ME!"

"No, you tell me everything, NOW."

"You really fucking believe who ever told you that? Huh?! Well guess what! I wouldn't ever do that to you, and you know it! Rosiana, tell me know. Fucking."

I stood up.

"No! It's over! I'm done dealing with someone who I thought was the love of my life. I'm done dealing with a guy who I thought would change my life. I'm done dealing with a dirty lying mother fucker. I'm done dealing with the perfect person I've ever seen in my life, just use me and take everything I had and crush it. I'm done with appreciating your company. I'm done with loving you, more than I've ever loved anthing in my life. I'm done Derek, I'm done."

I started walking away, wait more like running.

"You really loved me, but now you don't even trust me. How did that happen?"

I stopped from walking away to go home and turned around.

"If you want to know who told me I'll tell you."

He went towards me, putting his hands on my shoulders.

"Please tell me Rosiana, please just tell me." He said.

I looked up at him, I started to cry even more then I expected to. I had so much weight on my shoulders that I didn't expect, I also saw that he was crying too.

"Natalie told me, ok? She told me that you were with Korenda. There I said it, Goodbye!"

He pulled my arm back with his strength, making me go backwards.

"You believe her? Why?"

"First of all, ow! Second of all, I believe her more than you because she's more honest and hasn't lied to me."

"I only lied to you about us being able to sleep together, that's all!"

"Goodbye Derek. Goodbye."

"Stop, WAIT!"

I turned around, my tears rolling down. I expected him not to notice them but he did.

"This is our last goodbye."

I ran, I kept running down the street, I kept trying to reach my house. But, all of a sudden it starts raining. I think in my head, What did I just do? Was it a mistake? Will I regret it? I kept crying, and remembered the pain on Dereks face, all the saddness coming out of him.

I can't stop the pain coming from somewhere.

I can't handle this.

Was this the right thing to do?