Soothe

1: Someone Worth Worrying Over

Soothe

In Which Meredith teaches Addison how to self-soothe.

Before Meredith married Derek, and After she'd almost told Addison she liked her.

F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. MerAdd. Meddison. GA/PP Fanfiction.

Set during GA - "Before After/An Honest Mistake & PP - Acceptance/Ex-Life. Rated M.

Inspired by "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" by Illegal Kittens, "Blame Game" by LordOfLezzies, and "All We Ever Are We Are" by SilverStarsAndMoons.

Chapter 1: Someone Worth Worrying Over

In Which Meredith teaches Addison she's someone worth worrying over.

Meredith Grey finds Addison Montgomery crying in the residents' lounge.

She's not so sure why Addison would even be here, since it's not like she's even a resident, anymore.

And it's not like she's ever been a Seattle Grace Hospital resident, ever.

And it's not like she's ever been in the resident's lounge for no reason, ever.

Not that Meredith has ever noticed or seen her in here, at least, that she remembers.

Addison looks like she's been sobbing and ugly-crying, and Meredith thinks for a moment she should maybe leave Addison all alone.

Because she's sort of her ex-husband's ex-mistress and then was his ex-girlfriend and now is his current-girlfriend and maybe soon to even be his current-fiance... If she says yes, to Derek Shepherd, that is...

She'd never told anyone that she'd found that ring in his pocket last week.

She never even told Cristina that, and she usually told Cristina everything.

But Cristina would probably want to be happy for her, and she's not sure she wants to be happy for herself, so she never said anything to anyone, ever. Not even Cristina.

And so now she is standing behind Addison Forbes Montgomery, her ex-teacher and ex-mentor and ex-Mrs. McDreamy and she's not sure what to do or to say at all, or if she'll say anything, about that, or about anything else, to anyone, or to Addison, ever.

She should probably walk right away right now, run away from it all.

She should probably not rekindle the bittersweet inklings of not quite friendship but not quite not-friendship that she'd once shared with Addison in solidarity over Derek.

Back then a few years ago when Addison was the adulterous satan and she was the dirty blonde mistress and things were so, so, much different for both of them, back then, anyway.

And then now Addison is just somebody she used to know from her past, from their past.

Because Meredith likes to think that they had something that had been shared together that was other than Derek, their mutual 'shared' ex-though-not-so-ex-for-Meredith-anymore...

And back then, they had gotten along, usually when something really really BAD had happened.

Like when Meredith had been in an explosion and George told her later that Addison had freaked out when she found out it was her hand on the bomb and no longer Hannah's.

Like when she drowned off the sound and Addison stayed in the room with her while Derek tried and failed to resuscitate Meredith's mother. Which wasn't actually his fault, per se, unlike some of the other things that were probably actually Derek's fault.