Soothe

18: Afterlife?

SOOTHE CHAPTER 18 CONTENT WARNING: (Skip only if you don't want spoilers!)

ONLY CANONICAL references of Meredith's drowning/suicide attempt, as well as Ellis Grey's previous (sort of) suicide attempt. This section is brief and there are no surprises if you have already watched Season 4, but listing these warnings here, anyway as I know that is important.

Also, small references to boy shape, size, weight, though not a major conflict in the character's lives.

Author's Note:

Welcome to another Chapter, folks.

Here we go!

See you at the end, in the comments.

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PREVIOUSLY ON "SOOTHE":

Meredith tries to stop thinking about hypothetical love speeches for Addison Montgomery.

Instead, Mer tries to sniffle without getting it on Addison's shirts, and dry up her tears on her sleeve.

Meredith feels Addison finally looking down at her eyes again as Addison stops crying, too.

"Can we get ready for bed, now, and just talk some more later?" Meredith asks Addison.

Addison says yes, and she offers Meredith the first shower but Meredith offers it right back.

Meredith insists with her eyes so Addison heads to the washroom and showers very quickly.

Meredith half-regrets sending Addison first because she knows Addie is saving her, hot water.

Meredith just didn't want to see Addison shivering any longer from all of their tears shed on her.

When Addison emerges Meredith can see her eyes are even redder. She heard sobs over the faucet.

Addison shakes her head as if to say 'no, please, don't pity me,' as Meredith looks away and heads off to shower Addison hands her a pair of purple pajamas and everything else that she needs for the night. Meredith doesn't tell her she wasn't pitying Addie; that look in her eyes she was hiding, was far from pity, it was far sadder than that because it was a pure look of unrequited, and yet, completely, true, love.

END OF FLASHBACK SEQUENCE.

Soothe

In Which Meredith teaches Addison how to self-soothe.

Before Meredith married Derek, and After she'd almost told Addison she liked her.

F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. MerAdd. Meddison. GA/PP Fanfiction.

Set during GA - "Before After/An Honest Mistake & PP - Acceptance/Ex-Life. Rated M.

Inspired by "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" by lespians, "Blame Game" by LordOfLezzies, "All We Ever Are We Are" by SilverStarsAndMoons and "I'll Feel Better When The Headaches Go Away" by StepIsInsanity.

Chapter 18: Afterlife?

Reflections about what might be coming next for Meredith and also Addison after they have both firmly broken up with Derek Shepherd.

(To be clear, no, Addison and Meredith do not commit suicide or plot to, or even want to. This is mostly about something else, entirely...)

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Once Addison has dried her hair off, mostly, she wraps it in a towel before facing Meredith again. Meredith has since taken the time to compose herself and settle into the pajamas that Addison has lent her. They are a bit oversized because Addison is taller, and her hips are wider, ('and her ass and her breasts and her abs are bigger, too,' Mer tries to not think about that right now!).