Soothe

3: More than an Answer, but Less than a Question

Author's Note:

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** THIS CHAPTER WAS ORIGINALLY POSTED, IN ERROR, AS CHAPTER 36 OF 'FALLING APART, BARELY BREATHING'.

APOLOGIES FOR THE CONFUSION. NOW IT LIVES HERE; WHERE IT BELONGS.

NEW CHAPTER OF FABB # 36 WILL COME LATER IN ITS CORRECT SPOT!

Soothe

In Which Meredith teaches Addison how to self-soothe.

Before Meredith married Derek, and After she'd almost told Addison she liked her.

F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. MerAdd. Meddison. GA/PP Fanfiction.

Set during GA - "Before After/An Honest Mistake & PP - Acceptance/Ex-Life. Rated M.

Inspired by "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" by Illegal Kittens, "Blame Game" by LordOfLezzies, and "All We Ever Are We Are" by SilverStarsAndMoons.

Chapter 3: More than an Answer, but Less than a Question

In Which Meredith wants to ask Addison for something, but she doesn't want to owe favors.

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Meredith understands Addison better than she should, perhaps. At face value, the two women have hardly anything in common with each other other than their mutual sleeping with Derek. Derek had even once said to one of them, bitterly, that Meredith was the 'Anti-Addison'. Or maybe that had been one of them to say to HIM. Neither of them was sure anymore.

And Derek would sure as hell never tell them. Or probably even remember the exchange. Meredith realized that Derek focused more on what was so similar between them, rather than what was apart. Both of them were attractive, for starters. And neither of them could blame him for selecting someone physically stunning. Though neither of them would ever admit that, either.

Meredith understands that Addison has similar broken pieces inside of her, or at least she had had them when she had been with him. Or maybe she'd had them before him and so did Meredith and that's how they ended up wanting him; craving him. Craving the person who craved getting the best out of both of them at the same time, without having to decide at all.

Something was clearly in mechanical failure in both of their brains or something because they had let him lead them both on and lead them into the fire. Without leading either of them out without getting burned. This analogy is obviously ironic to Meredith as she even imagines it, because Derek is, of course, a brain surgeon so you'd think that he'd fix them up or something.

But 'Derek is a fixer' might have been the problem with all of this in the first place. Derek liked to be the hero. He liked to be the person to say 'it's a beautiful day to save lives' as if the sun rose and set to his pace as he saved all of his patients. Mostly. Because he didn't save all of them. No one did, and Derek didn't either. But neither did Meredith or even Addison, either.

And now Derek was attempting one of his more ambitious plans yet, the one that would either save Addison's brother or leave him to die on his table, or even worse yet, make it off of his table to live out a short remainder of his life which he might spend in unbearable pain and even also in agony. And need Addison to take care of him while in said pain and agony.

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And then Meredith wouldn't even really be supposed to be around comforting Addison then, at all. Because she would have to be around comforting Derek because he's her boyfriend I guess for the moment and he probably wants to be more with her sooner rather than later. Meredith hadn't meant to find it. But she did. She found his mother's ring. In his suit pants pocket.