Soothe

8: Tries Very Hard To Code-Switch

Author's Note:

This chapter is dedicated to itslexipedia, for commenting on Chapter 6 and Kristin_Aubrie, for commenting on Chapter 6 AND on Chapter 7. And the others, as well.

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PREVIOUSLY ON "SOOTHE":

Meredith wants to rip the band-aid off all at once, so she stands up and helps Sadie up and walks out of the supply closet. And Sadie makes a 'coming out' joke, and Meredith rolls her eyes pointedly. And as soon as Derek comes back into earshot, she tells him loud and clear that Sadie Harris was once her girlfriend; that the 'sleeping through Europe together was literal'.

Meredith Grey says this to Derek Shepherd, outside Archer Montgomery's room, in a voice that is deliberately loud enough for Addison Montgomery to hear her admission, as well.

And Addison comes out of the room and says to Meredith, then "I get it, you know." Addison admits to Meredith she'd been listening in that whole time, as she'd thought. "What you told him was an honest, insane - I was never that brave. I couldn't... Anyway, thank you for the head CT for Archer. Really, thank-you. And you're braver than I am. You really are strong, Meredith..."

And then Meredith realizes that Addison understands her. She understands her, like that.

END OF FLASHBACK SEQUENCE.

Soothe

In Which Meredith teaches Addison how to self-soothe.

Before Meredith married Derek, and After she'd almost told Addison she liked her.

F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. MerAdd. Meddison. GA/PP Fanfiction.

Set during GA - "Before After/An Honest Mistake & PP - Acceptance/Ex-Life. Rated M.

Inspired by "Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now" by Illegal Kittens, "Blame Game" by LordOfLezzies, and "All We Ever Are We Are" by SilverStarsAndMoons.

Chapter 8: Tries Very Hard To Code-Switch

In Which Meredith asks if Addison misses 'it".

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"Addison, you, too...!?" Meredith implies with her words and her shocked look she knows that she has in her eyes. "Yeah," Addison says to her softly, sighing as she smiles another sad smile and sort of looks down at the floor then back up again. "But you never - to him?" Meredith implies another question without saying anything too incriminating out loud for everyone to hear.

"No, I never, to him," Addison answers Meredith's question with another sad sigh. "And did you ever, to-" Meredith doesn't want to have to try to imply a whole roomful of people, so she leaves it all open-ended and unspecific again. "No, I've never, to anyone, ever, really, here," Addison says even more sadly than the last two times, and Meredith wants to say "I'm sorry,". She does.

"There's nothing for you to be sorry about here, Meredith," Addison says, finally meeting her eye again. "I meant I'm sorry, for earlier when I said the other thing in that room, I-" Meredith clarifies another implication to Addison. "Oh, right. Thanks," Addison accepts this apology, and Meredith is grateful that she finally does. She wonders if it has anything to do with this or Archer.

"So, will you?" Meredith asks Addison, open-endedly again, and reverting back to their original topic. "I have honestly no idea at this point," Addison says to her warily. "Well, he didn't yell at me, at all, kinda, if that helps at all," Meredith shrugs. "Yeah, I was a bit surprised at that honestly," Addison shrugs at Meredith back. "Are you relieved by his reaction to me?" She asks.