Hold Me Darling (Adam Young / Owl City Fan Fiction)

Chapter 13- Leukemia

"No, not really. I wanna just cuddle today, or go to the beach. I'm tired of the cold." Adam refused.

"Sounds awesome, we have heaps of beaches where I used to live."

Adam breathed tightly. "I've never been to one."

"What about we go to a beach soon? We can't go now because we're in the middle of winter."

His sigh harmonized with mine and we both became silent. "Well, this calls for a staycation." I popped the bubble.

He smiled instead of replying and lied himself on the couch and started sleeping. He grabbed me to sleep with him and he cuddled me. He wrapped his arms around my body, to make sure I won't fall and we both slept. I woke up in the middle of our sleep, staring at Adam's beautiful, in a manly way of course, face. I lamentated silently, hoping he won't notice. I suddenly felt so weak and breathless, my head started to ache.

Before I even knew it, Adam carried me bridal style and put me in his car.

I woke up in an unfamiliar place, walls were painted white, there was a heater, and things were beeping. I looked to my right. A flower vase. I looked to my front. A flat screen TV, colored black. I started to get scared and looked to my left. Adam was there, fast asleep, holding my hands tight. I sighed in relief knowing he was there.

But why was I in a hospital?!

I slightly shook my hands to wake Adam up. "What happened?" I said in a faint voice. "You passed out and your nose started bleeding." Adam said, still half asleep, though his eyes were opened wide. I could tell by his voice.

"And?"

"And they've done a few blood tests, we're still hoping it's just because of the fatigue, though."

"Oh, I'm not tired, though." I lied. I was extremely tired, I felt so lifeless, I felt so weak, I felt very, very feeble.

"It could also be because of stress, a doctor mentioned. Are you stressed?" Adam said as he carefully peeles an orange and put it in my mouth.

"No thanks, I don't like oranges." I hesitantly said, "And I'm not even stressed," I lied for the second time.

"Well if that is so, then we're hoping for the best results in your blood tests." Adam said cheerfully, probably trying to cheer me up, too.

Suddenly, the nurse came in.

"Mr. Adam, can you go out for a while?" The nurse politely ordered. Adam went out the room, and the nurse gave me a sad look, while examining her purple clip board.

"Brielle, right?" She turned her attention to me. "Right." I replied.

"You have too much thrombocytes.." She tried to say calmly. "And I'm afraid you're going to have your bone marrow checked right away."

"Thrombocytes? Blood marrow? Checked right away?" I said like I'm her echo. "What the hell are you talking about?! I'm fine!" My voice shook as tears started to form in my eyes.

"Brielle, a normal person produces billion of cells everyday. Most of those cells are red blood cells. And you produce more white blood cells than red ones, Despite their vast numbers, these leukemia cells are unable to fight infection the way normal white blood cells do. As they spread even more, they interfere with vital organ functions, including the production of healthy blood cells. Eventually, the body does not have enough red blood cells to supply oxygen, enough platelets to ensure proper clotting, or enough normal white blood cells to fight infection." She said, straightforwardly.

I started shaking my head 'no' slowly as I tried to swallow back the tears that were about to fall.

"Don't worry, honey. We will still run through a few more bone marrow tests on you, so it's not yet confirmed." She paused for a little while to catch up for air.

Then continued, "But whatever the result will be, ready yourself." She gave me a look of warning.

Her eyes became teary when she said, "This results in persons with Leukemia being anemic as well as increasing their risks of bruising, bleeding, and infection."

Before she even finished, my eyes have already grown bloodshot, and still continuously is, from all the crying.

"Look at this." She raised up my hospital gown up to my thigh and showed me large patches of purple bruises, which was just mentioned that Leukemia can cause bleeding and bruising. She said I had a lot on my back, as well. I started crying uncontrollably and told her not to let anyone in. My parents came in without knocking, and the nurse explained everything to them.

My mom pulled me into a tight hug, very teary eyed. "I'm sorry, baby." She stroked my hair up and down. I almost wanted to roll my eyes, but then I realized,

What if I die next month?

Next week?

Tomorrow?

Or worse, today?"

So I gently hugged her back as a single tear escaped from me eye silently. "I love you all." I looked at everyone in the room. Miranda, my dad, and my mom.

"Shouldn't you guys be at Uncle John's?"

"Adam called us and told about you."

My dad held back his tears and hugged me very, very tight I almost can't breathe again. "I'm a fighter. Results for Leukemia will be negative.." I reassured all of them.

Then it struck me, that you only know the value of people once you lose them..

"Please tell Adam I need to rest for a while." I asked my mom politely.

She went out to talk to Adam and he grabbed his coat from the coat rack and winked at me, and waved goodbye. "B-bye." I smiled faintly.

When he left, I still thought of how I could tell Adam all of this- first, about my leaving, then about my disease.

Wake up, Brielle. This is all just a terrible nightmare. I encouraged myself.

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