Just Breathe

Chapter Seventeen Bailey

Sun poured into the room and warmed my skin. I didn’t want to wake up yet. When I opened my eyes all the memories from last night came rushing back. Our dinner date, being soaked head to toe, showering together, having sex in the shower and crawling into bed with Gavin and falling asleep in his arms. It was the perfect date. It was the perfect everything, really. I stretched my arms above my head, and wow, did my muscles ache. I ached in places that I didn’t even realize could ache. Gavin was sweet, dominant, soft, and hard, all at the same time. Although he had no idea I just gave my virginity to him last night, he couldn’t have planned last night better than how it happened.
You planning on putting your big girl panties on some time, and opening up to the guy? Or did you forget that in the middle of your spectacular sex-a-thone, the dude woke up screaming bloody murder and then opened up to you about his nightmares of his dead brother?
And good morning to you, inner voice. I would have expected that you would be on cloud nine from the “sex-a-thone”. Oh, girl, I am. My lady parts are deliciously sore, yet still wanting more, but you have the perfect opportunity to tell him the truth!
I swear I could punch her in the throat sometimes. I know I have to tell him, now more than ever, since he was open with me about something so traumatizing in his life and that he is still struggling with. Shit! My story is so different and so much more complicated, and what if by telling Gavin puts him in danger? What if he finds me and threatens to hurt Gavin? I would never forgive myself. And that is why you have to tell him! Oh, shut up already!
I spot Gavin in the kitchen -- the man has an amazing backside. He’s topless and his back muscles flex as he moves, and he has on sleep pants that hang low around his waist, emphasizing his backside.
He has a nice ass, girl! Get it straight! Go away!
He’s making coffee and cooking breakfast. Shit, I told Ash I’d meet her with enough time to talk before she started her shift at the grill. I spot the time on the clock above the T.V. and see it’s just after eight in the morning. I guess I can stay for a little bit and still have time to meet up with Ash.
“Morning.” I whisper from the opening of the kitchen. Like my place, Gavin’s kitchen opens up into the living room.
“Morning, beautiful. I was hoping to surprise you with breakfast in bed.” His dark locks are a tousled mess and I want nothing more than to run my fingers through it again. His dark chocolate eyes burrow into mine as he steps into my space and places a soft kiss on my lips. I could really get used to this.
“Hmm… I could get used to kissing you every morning and seeing you in my shirt.” He whispers against my lips, making my cheeks burst into flames. Why does he have to be so perfect the next morning, too?  I can’t help but smile up at him all the same.
“I smelled the coffee and came searching.” I respond as he returns to the stove.
“Here, I thought you missed me in bed and came looking for me.” He teased as he grabbed two mugs from the cabinets above the stove and began to pour our coffees. I can’t help but laugh.
“I figured if I found the coffee, you wouldn’t be too far.” I managed to tease back. I loved this, the easy way we could tease each other, but still, be respectful, but then have serious conversations and try to understand the other. I don’t want to ruin this, but I know I can’t hide my past from him for much longer. It’s not fair to Gavin, to me, and especially not to Logan.
“Good save, beautiful.” He handed me one of the mugs and placed the milk and sugar on the counter for me to serve myself.
“I’m not sure how you like your coffee, you’ll have to let me know for next time.” He kissed my forehead and then went back to finish up on the stove. Without too much thought, I answered him.
“I like it with just a hint of milk to change the color, and one and a half sugar. It’s still bitter but with a hint of sweetness.” I smiled over the rim of the mug while inhaling the beautiful aroma of caffeine.
“You are the cutest, sexiest, and most beautiful woman, all wrapped in one.” I let out a chuckle and went to sit at the kitchen table, as Gavin brought over a large plate with scrambled eggs, bacon, and sausage. He went back to grab some plates and cutlery, and once he had everything set, he served my plate first.
“Thank you, but you didn’t have to serve me first.” I placed my mug on the table and grabbed the fork and knife he placed for me, while I waited for him to fill his plate.
“I know, but I wanted to.” He leaned in and placed a kiss on my forehead before starting. We enjoyed the food for a few minutes in silence before he broke it.
“Bailey, I am going to say something, so I want you to pay close attention.” I place my fork and knife on the table and turn my attention to him so we can lock eyes. He hasn’t looked at me yet, and I figured he was probably gonna bring up our conversation from last night. Which you should take advantage of and tell him about your past! Not now! I reach over and place my hand on his thigh and squeeze just a little, so he knows I’m listening.
“Last night… after I woke up from… the nightmare…” He cleared his throat before starting again.
“You’re the first person I’ve ever spoken to about my brother and what happened. Aside from Hunter, you’re the only person who knows I have nightmares and that my father blames me for Travis’ death.” He whispers the last part. Gosh, why do fathers have to be so fucked up?
“I won’t tell anyone, Gavin. I promise you don’t have to worry about that.” I reassure him.
“Baby, I know. That’s not why I brought it up. I know last night ended with some heavy shit, and I’m sorry if I ruined it for you.” He lets out a soft sheepish chuckle that I can’t help smiling at.
“Last night was perfect, Gavin. Every single moment.” I lean in and kiss his cheek. He smiles down at me before he continues.
“I promise our next night will be less traumatic, or I hope it will be, at least. What I want to say is, I don’t want to pressure you into opening up about your past, even though I opened up about mine. I want you to trust me and open up to me on your own time. The only thing I’ll ask is… where is Logan’s father?” and with that final question, I feel the ground beneath me give out, and a black abyss sucks me in.

Author's Notes:
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