Anikdota ni Marga (COMPLETED)

C H A P T E R - X V I

I open the gate and there is mason sitting on his cars hood with a cigarette on the middle of his finger. I walk to him, i can inhale the awful smell of his cigarette.

Napansin nya siguro ang pagtaboy ko ng usok sa mukha ko kaya agad nyang tinapon ang sigarilyo nya. I sit next to him.

Ang lamig ng gabi. Walang man lang ni isang tala sa langit. Sobrang lungkot ng gabi na pati buwan ayaw nang magpakita. Tanging poste ng ilaw lang sa kabilang kanto ang ang rason kung bakit naaaninag ko pa si mason.

Nobody dares to break the silence. In just a snap he grab my wrist and pull me infront of him.

"Mason, ano ba baka may makita satin" i protested.

He let go of my wrist and pull me into a tight embrace. I shake violently, hoping that he well let me go. The more i shake the tighter it gets, until i couldn't move at all.

"Shhhh, please. Just give me a minute" i never heard him this sad before. His voice is almost cracking.

"What's wrong?"

"Shhh let's just savor the moment" we stayed in that same position for I don't know how long. His stroking my hair. His hot breath on the top of my head. I feel safe, i feel secured, i feel joy.

Biglang umihip ang isang malamig na hangin.

"Mason, i think we should stop this" i break the silence.

"Of course, just promise me that you'll never forget me" his cold answer, that send shivers all over my body.

I distance my self from him "it's not like we're gonna stop seeing each other. We're still friends right?. Partner in crime" i hit his shoulder.

"I'm going to U.S." another bucket of ice water splash all over my body out of no where.

"Huh, why so sudden. Kailan?. Next week, next month?" I was instantly out of breath, my chest started to tighten. This is much more intense than jasons proposal earlier.

"Im about to leave now, 4 a.m.. since its already past one in the morning, it  means i have less than 3 hours to enjoy my stay here in the Philippines".

I gulp "so ba't di mo sinabi sakin"  my eyes started to cloud some tears.

"What for?"

"What for?, Yeah what for?. Yeah right. Oo nga naman pala wala rin naman palang tayo. Wala kang obligasyon na sabihin sakin na aalis ka na". Tears started to fell on my face.

"Marga, you just told me earlier that you want to stop this"

"Yeah, maybe this is for the best. Go, leave." My sobs are getting louder.

"Marga" he hold my hands.

"Marga look at me" i tried to look away from him but he grab my chin and force me to look at him. He grab my face with both of his hands.

He wipe my tears.

"We're good, right?. We're good" i didn't answer him.

I just went and directly hug him. "I hate you. I fucking hate you".

"I know" he whispers.

I started to ugly cry. Why am i so affected, it's not like we're really together. I think this is much better for us, for everyone. I just keep on hugging him, his hands keep on caressing my back.