Suffocating Silence | Kiribaku

Midnight Haunts Him / Kirishima

After Kat's breathing evened out, and I decided it was ok to go to sleep. I moved us down a little in the bed, throwing a blanket over the both of us.

He had unintentionally placed his arm across me in his sleep. It may be a little soon for this type of thing, but considering what he's been through recently and what he went through tonight.. I think I can make an exception. Of course, I can't exactly think straight when it comes to him.

I check the clock before turning over and facing the blond. 10:42.. I should be able to wake up before him. I hate that he'll have to go through that as well.

His facial features are relaxed, he looks at peace.. not mad at the word like usual. Although, I know things are going to change with all this. The worst part is, I don't know how he's going to handle it.

After an hour of peaceful sleep I feel a sharp pain in my back. It's almost like multiple needles puncturing my skin.. my mind assures me I'm lying on something sharp until my memory kicks into gear. Katsuki.

My eyelids are quick to shoot open. Bakugou is clawing rough onto my back. His facial features that were once relaxed are now contorted into an expression of fear. Instincts kick in, and I feel nothing but a sense of protectiveness.

My hazy, tired mind didn't seem to remember today's events as I shook the other boy. I was confused as to why he wouldn't wake up to somebody calling his name. I freeze.

Oh.

You can't hear me.

I shake his shoulders a bit rougher. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up.

The blond in front of me awakes with a sharp gasp. Seemingly longing for oxygen as he continues to inhale rapidly. 'Hey,' I mouth, trying to draw his attention to my face. I cup his cheek and rub it gently with my thumb.

'I'm here,' I mouth into the darkness. My mind wanders for a moment, I turn to look at my clock. 12.. midnight haunts him.

My mind races back to all the sleepovers we had had before, every single night.. almost like clockwork. This routine would happen. Except this time it's different.

- (flashback)

I lie on a blow up mattress positioned in the middle of his floor. We went to bed hours ago, but I stay awake till the clock hits 12.

Like every time before he starts fidgeting and mumbling.

Everything in me wants to hold him, tell him it's going to be ok, but I can't. I can't. I can't.

The painful reminder that he isn't mine resonates in my head.

Please.

He sounds.. in pain? It hurts.

All I can do is squeeze my eyelids shut, and force myself to fall asleep, feeling utterly useless.

- (end of flashback)

But this time.. this time..

I can hold him.

When I realize that, I immediately pull him close to my chest. Which he surprisingly doesn't fight against, but that's because he won't remember in the morning. My hands find there way to the blond's back, and begin to rub aimlessly. I'm here.

Kat mutters out a contented sigh and cuddles closer, if that's even possible. His eyes flutter back shut, it's exactly like always. Bakugou probably doesn't even realize how much distress he's in when the probable nightmares occur. What's even more worrisome is that he has not once mentioned having nightmares. Maybe after tonight it'll be different.

Maybe he's been trying to hide it, but what if he just honestly doesn't remember. I'm not sure that's possible though, the way he acts when they happen. The agonizing expressions. It makes my chest ache.

I'll have to remind myself to bring it up at some point.

I'll always be here. I hope you know that. From the moment you accepted me as some what of an equal I felt special. Now that I'm yours.. I'll give you all I can.

A/N
Apologizes for this awful uploading schedule, I'll try to be more consistent. Also if anyone knows anything about the 'Blind Kiri' headcannon, can you explain it to me? (Won't be included in this book.. I'm just intrigued.)