Suffocating Silence | Kiribaku

Im Done / Bakugou

A/N
Please do not attack me. *mwah*

TW
Suicide Attempt

//Two Weeks Later//

I had it planned from the night Kiri told me about going back to school.

It's ok, I'm sure he'll understand. Being alone would probably be more beneficial in the long run anyway.

I'd glanced through the cupboards for pills, inconspicuously. Once I was there were some I could use, I started planning.

I started planning the way I would die.

-

The morning arrived sooner than I had expected. Kirishima tossed and turned in the covers before getting up. His alarm probably kept buzzing, surely reminding him of his daily duties. Meanwhile, his tossing reminded me of my own special plans.

The red head went to go get ready, heading to the bathroom first, just as the previous week.

After a few minutes he returned to the bedroom with his hair done, and teeth brushed. Everything was going according to plan.

He signs a 'goodmorning', and kisses me on the head. Judging by his usual routine..

This means he is going to leave soon.

I wait a couple minutes after he leaves the room, and walk out into the hall.

Since I can't hear if he's still here, I just have to look.

Luckily, I see him on his way his out the door. So I head back to his room.

We hadn't bothered to switch to my house, mostly because I was too lazy. Or maybe it was the fact I didn't want my Mom to have to find me.

Whatever the reason.. I take the old prescription bottle from under the bed, I had put it there earlier in the week when they both left the house. After sitting with it in my palm for a while, I start to make my way to the bathroom.

I walk in, and glance at myself in the mirror. My hands lay against the cold granite as the stranger in the mirror begins to open the bottle.

Kirishima is going to go off and become a great Pro Hero one day, and I'm not going to get in his way.

He'll be amazing, I'm sure of it.

Maybe even that other stupid nerd will make it into the big leagues.

Maybe Electric Idiot and Tape Elbows will get married one day.

Maybe Pinky will get the Squad to smile again.

Maybe Ei and I would've gotten married one day.

Maybe he will find someone who makes him happier.

Maybe I'll regret..- no.

I'm just some useless baggage he'd always have to keep in tow.

I repeat throwing insults at my self as I hold the bottle of pills.

Weak.

End it.

Do it.

Coward.

My hand shakes violently. The unstable legs that are supporting me, buckle. The hard wall echoes a 'thud' as my body slams against it.

The ringing in my ears seems to heighten, and I cringe. I cup my ears and fall, my body slowly slides down. Without realizing, a loud, choking sob escapes me.

I swallow as many of the pills as I can.

I'm sorry Kiri, maybe you were my soulmate who just wasn't meant to be.

Kiri..?

Ei?

Ei?... Ei!

I can tell I'm screaming by the force of air leaving my lungs.

I want to go, but please.. please hold me while I leave.

Take me back! Take me back to before all of this happened!

I want to hear.

I want to feel alive.

I want to be happy, and be with him!

For the next, what seemed to be minutes, I sat. My body was rocking back and forth, waiting for the pills to take affect.

All of the sudden, I flinch, out of my corner of my eye I see it.. the door opens.

I jump back slightly. The rest of the pills that were in the bottle, scatter. My eyes are burning with the amount of tears I've cried.

Kirishima looks petrified. It hurts.

Our eyes meet, and he instantly grabs his phone. Within the same moment he drops to the floor, and pulls me close to his chest.

I assume that he's calling for help, and some part of me wants to stop him. Although, I realize I can't. My hands won't work.. my vision is closing in. Blackness clouds my peripherals, and I feel something vibrate through my chest.

A laugh.

A/N
... Angst is my speciality, and it's the only thing on the menu.