My Habit from This Town

8) Skinny love

Trigger warning: this chapter does include eating disorders

Song for this chapter is Skinny Love by Birdy

**Louis' P.O.V**

I left Harry and Ethan to talk. I didn't want to because I could already tell Ethan's ambitions, but Harry wasn't stupid enough to go back right?

I got upstairs and entered my room, as to talk to the others (knocking first because you cannot leave them for 5 minutes, if you know what I mean). I flopped onto my bed and I just lates there as I thought.
"Do you think Harry likes me?" I blurted. It didn't take a genius to figure out that I was falling for him, hard. I'm okay with my sexuality now, so who was I to deny my feelings.
"Are you kidding me? Of course he does. You guys are fonding over each other almost as much as me and Liam! Everyone can see it. You know, through the whole house, we have different bets going on. Who's gonna make the first move and when. I reckon you should do it when you next see him. Not only are you both happy, I get a tenner." Niall responded. I thought about it. I thought hard.
"Okay. I'm gonna do it. When he comes back, I'm gonna ask him out."
"FINALLYY!!" Both the boys responded.

As we planned what I would say, I heard Harry skipping up to the door. He seemed rather happy for someone who just saw their ex. Oh well. It was now or never.

"Hey Haz. How was it?" I asked, with an undertone of excitement.

"I HAVE MY BOYFRIEND BACK!! I'M SO HAPPY!!" I got as a response as he grabbed me and hugged me hard.

"What are you talking about Hazza?" I asked him, suddenly terrified of the response I was about to receive.

"It was all a misunderstanding. He never cheated on me! And now I have him back. I missed him so much. I love Ethan and he loves me!!" I zoomed out after this, as Harry rambled on about how he got his perfect boyfriend back.

I wasn't hungry after that, so I just picked at my dinner.

"Come on Lou-bear. You will become like a stick if you don't eat!" Harry said enthusiastically from next to me. That's when it hit me.

Ethan was so much skinnier than me. Maybe that's why Harry didn't ask me out earlier; I'm too fat! That's how I was going to get him back.

"Eh. I'm not hungry." I replied, smiling at my most recent thought. I was going to lose weight so Haz loved me. "I think I'll eat later. I'm going to go out for a bit now, if that's okay Zayn?"

"Where do you want to go?" Zayn asked, worriedly, knowing what had most recently happened.

"Just for a run. Niall can come with me." I glanced over to Niall as I watched him shove his third helping of lasagne in his face.

"Oh hell no. I don't run. Plus, it's cake for dessert. I'm not missing that!" Niall responded. "Liam can go with you. He doesn't even like cake."

I looked over to Liam and he nodded. I was glad because we aren't allowed to go out alone and I was desperate at this point.

"Great. I'll go get my trainers!" He responded and darted off.

—————

We ran for three hours, or I did. Liam ended up needing a break for a while, but he soon caught up.

By the time we got home, it was 9pm. Luckily we had a 9:30 curfew because Zayn is strict when it comes to that. Although, when we got in, Zayn seemed very angry with us, which confused me because we hadn't broken any rules.

He then went on to explain how we were meant to text him if we were out longer than an hour. I felt guilty because Liam got the blame, as I'm new, but he didn't seem to mind.

——————
When it came to breakfast, I was starving, but I had already set a limit to myself. Breakfast foods were too unhealthy so I limited my meals to lunch and dinner only. And even then, the bare minimum. Salads and low fat foods were all I would eat.

This continued for a month before I saw any difference. Luckily, nobody else noticed though, because it became a habit at this point. A bad one. But I couldn't seem to stop myself.

Lunch and dinner became just one or the other, which ever was the smallest. And exercising became a daily ritual. I ran three times a day, for an hour and a half at least in each run. I was finally becoming slim. I could finally be Harry's skinny love.