My Habit from This Town

12) Look What You Made Me Do

TW: mention of domestic and sexual abuse

Song for this chapter is Look What You Made Me Do by Taylor Swift

**Ethan's P.O.V**

Did I have to steal his phone? Yes. I had to make sure Louis was out of his life. I had to message Louis as Harry. I love Harry and I don't want some fucked-up, depressed kid stealing him off me.

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**Harry's P.O.V**

As a celebration, I'm allowed to go home for a weekend! I'm so excited. Mum agreed to let me spend it at Ethan's house. His parents have a work thing that weekend so we get the whole house to ourselves. He said something about a party, so I'm pretty excited. It's gonna be my first, and probably my only, so Ethan said it's going to be the best one of the year.

As we are driving, Ethan is telling me what plans he has made for the weekend. He hasn't planned much as the party is tonight, and we will probably be very hungover over the next two days, so we have cute little dates mixed in but it's mainly cuddling and watching movies. I'm not complaining though, I love just hanging out with Ethan. He is so sweet.

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The party has been going on for hours, but I haven't drunken very much because I hate getting blackout drunk. I don't trust the things I say when I have alcohol so I just don't drink much. Ethan, however, is chugging everything he can find. He has changed since the last time we went to a party. He used to also hate alcohol.

The party is dying down, and most people have left. The rest are just passed out in random places around the house. I help a very drunk Ethan to the bedroom so I can put him to bed, as he is in no state to walk without assistance. He keeps mumbling stuff to me about cute I am, and how he loves me, but I just giggle at him, because drunk Ethan is very unpredictable so you have to try and keep him happy.

We arrive in the bedroom and Ethan tries to undress me but I gently tell him "No sweetie. We haven't done that yet and our first time will not be whilst we both have been drinking. Okay?" expecting him to understand, but he suddenly lashes out at me.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN? WE ARE BOTH SOBER ENOUGH TO MAKE THIS DECISION, ARE WE NOT?" he starts yelling.

"No babe. You won't remember any of this in the morning. I promise. Just go to sleep and we can talk about it another time. Okay?"

"NO!" he outbursts. "NICK WAS RIGHT! YOU ARE A WIMP! YOU ARE USELESS! I BET YOU AREN'T EVEN GOOD AT IT! NICK IS, YOU KNOW? WE FUCK EVERY NIGHT BECAUSE HE ACTUALLY LIKES ME! UNLIKE YOU. YOU JUST WANT TO SLEEP WITH LOUIS. WHY? HE IS WORTHLESS! I HATE YOU!" he starts screaming. Tears are rolling down my face because I know that he means what he says. Especially about Nick. He was still cheating on me. He always was. I am so stupid.

"If you really feel that way, call Nick tonight. I'm leaving." I respond, but before I can leave, he grabs me and throws me against the wall.

"NO! YOU WILL STAY WITH ME! YOU ARE MINE WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!" he screams, as he starts punching and kicking me with great force. He then grabs me and throws me on the bed, as I cannot move through the pain. The last thing I remember him yelling is "LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO". The rest is a blur of me yelling "no" and him hitting me every time I do. Not long after, I black out due to the pain. My last thought is "how could I love him? How could he be so different than I thought he was?"

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I woke up the next morning, everything aching. Then I remember what had happened the night before. I rushed to get up, so I could leave. I was not spending another minute with this monster. Then I realise how my clothes are not on my body. I realise how sore my ass is. I realise what happened and I just burst into tears. I chuck my clothes on and text my mum to pick me up. I would just tell her that I got into a fight if she asked about my very obvious cuts and bruises over my body. Nobody would ever find out what actually happened. It was too humiliating.

And I would forever hate myself for it.