My Habit from This Town

18) Love you goodbye

Song for this chapter is Love You Goodbye by 1D

**Louis' P.O.V**

I've finally gotten over Niall and Liam's leaving. Them hosting their gender reveal here helped. But now they have to focus on their new life with their soon-to-be daughter. It's two days before my birthday, aka Christmas Eve. Which means Harry leaves tomorrow. We have gotten so close that it might just kill me. Not only because he is leaving, but that I'm not leaving with him. We came here together so we should leave together. But we aren't. Because of my stupid self. He doesn't know that he is the reason I stopped eating. But I'm scared that without him, it'll start again. I just have to hope.

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Harry's leaving today. I'm not ready. We are at his party and he is socialising with everyone else, and I'm just watching him from across the room. Not only is he leaving me, he's going back to Ethan. He wouldn't be stupid enough to date him again. But I'm scared of what Ethan will do to him. He isn't very good at protecting himself.

Harry's leaving present from me is a note. I feel kind of stupid now, for not giving him something proper, but last time we were split apart, he gave me a note. I'm just returning the favour.

I wrote it last night, and it reads:
Dear Hazzy,
I hate that we are being pulled apart again. I wish that I was leaving with you. I wish we hadn't met again in such unfortunate circumstances. I wish so much. But life isn't like that. Life is an asshole. You should know. You also have read, and love, The Fault In Our Stars. You are the Gus to my Hazel. Hopefully, our story won't be as tragic as theirs but my love for you is endless. And I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you. But we can't do anything about this. At least not whist we are in here. I'm here for six more months. It's no secret that you like me. And now you know that I like you. I don't want you to wait for me, but if you still have these feelings in six months, when I am free again, we can try. We will give us a try and god damn will I try hard. I guess that's all I have to say for now.
I love you.
Goodbye.
Your Lou-bear.

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The time came for Harry to get his stuff from our room. I was already up here, trying not to cry. I still hadn't given him my letter. I was waiting for the last moment. Before I could, he spoke.

"So. I've not gotten a goodbye present from you. That's kinda rude." He joked. I giggled quietly. "That doesn't matter Lou-Lou. In fact, I have a present for you instead. It also counts as your birthday present, so enjoy it. It was really expensive and one of a kind." I just nodded. He was leaving and he actually bought me something. I felt awful that all I had was a piece of paper. He turned around and shuffled through his bag. He turned around with a bow stuck to his forehead. "SURPRISE!" He yelled.

"What are you on about?" I asked, more confused than Harry looking at a hair straightener.

"I spoke to Zayn. I decided I couldn't leave without you. We came here together, so we should leave together. Plus, who knows what kind of mischief you would get into without me."

"I'm still confused Hazza. What's happening?"

"I'm staying for six more months bitch. Happy birthday!!" He squealed. I jumped into his arms and hugged him like a koala.

Maybe these six months wouldn't be so bad after all.