Psycho Love - Choi San (ATEEZ)

50 - I'm Sorry

"She's Yeoju's sister?" I asked to Alice.

"Yes. She has a crush to San since long time ago" Alice explained.

"But how did you know?" I wanted some explanations.

"Mingi, Wooyoung and I just met him few days ago. He told us about the past thing especially about Sara" Alice casually said while tying her hair into ponytails.

"You guys met him and didn't told me?" I leaned closer to her face and she moved backwards a bit.

"Woah woah.. I knew you're gonna say this but we want to help you guys. We can't stand to see you two like that so we invited him for a dinner to discuss" Alice touched my shoulders trying to calm me down.

I silenced for a moment.

"What did he said about Sara?" My voice sounded slow as I wanted to know what were they talking about during their meeting.

"I'll start about how she got to be in his family" Alice corrected her position before she told me the exact story.

"Before Mr. and Mrs. Choi adopted Yunho and Yeoju, both of them stayed at the same adoption house. Same goes to Sara. Or I could say Yeoju and Sara always together since they were younger. After Choi's family taken her sister together with Yunho, Sara just left alone at the adoption house and that actually saddens Yeoju more because they didn't get to live together" Alice explained while playing with her hair and me already got emotional listening to her story.

Somehow I do feel sad about Sara and her situation a bit similar with mine. I'm an orphan too with no parents and I knew the feeling of not having someone.

"Sara's age is same with San and the difference of their age difference to Yeoju and Yunho only 2 years apart. Yeoju has been adopted when she was 15 and Sara was 13 at that time. San spent his time playing together with Yunho and Yeoju most of the time and San noticed Yeoju kind of sad at the beginning. She told him she has a sister but she can't meet her forever after this because of she's already adopted so San requested to her mom if sometimes Sara can come to their house to play. So yeah, she did come to play with them every weekend" Alice explained and I nodded my head wanting to hear more.

"One time Sara confessed to San that she like him but San declined her. He only thought Sara as a friend, not more than that" Alice words making me remembered at that time San had an unrequited love to Yeoju so that's why Sara didn't have a chance.

"So San distanced himself from her from time to time because he knew Sara still had a feeling to him. She's getting obsessed but she would not showed it in front of others. So when Yeoju died, Mrs. Choi took her to stay together with them as she didn't has anyone else after her sister gone. But she didn't want to stay as an adopted so she requested to Mr. and Mrs. Choi to work as a maid there to repay their kindness even they insisted not to.. Or maybe because she wanted to stay there just to look at San" Alice ended her story until there and I nodded still can't believe who Sara is.

I stood up from the seat and paced back and forth in front of the TV thinking on Alice's story just now. I can't believe she is Yeoju's sister. How come San never told her about this.

"Y/N.. What are you thinking right now?" Alice asked as she frowned looking at me.

"I think I need to see him Alice. I felt guilty right now" I feel guilty for not listening to his reasons.

Alice smiled and stood up.

"Now that's my friend. I'm sorry for not telling you earlier on why San didn't come home" Alice pulled me into her hug and I shook my head.