Our love behind the door

One thing that would kill me was his love, the love i developed for him. Hi my name is yasir, allow me to tell you about my life. I am the only child for both my parents and i was very close to my father, my mother and i we are not that close. She is a girly girl she loves lip stick and nails also a hopeless romantic i tell you. I lost my father when i was 10 years old and he was my only friend, it was painful to loss him and i am not even close to my mother like that. After my dad death i had to change schools and move as well, lucky me i was not the only new kid at that school. The was this nice girl "Nari" she became my first friend and she introduced me to her brother " devanter" let me tell you about me and D. When i was 14 years old we had a little thing i fell for him so bad and all we did was talk only, but we only had 2 days "dating" and he kissed another girl in front of me and ever since that day i hated him so bad cause he broke my little heart. My mother moved away from me when i was 14 to find love and i started living with Nari's family but their parents are hardly home or in the country. When i was 16 years old my mother bought me a flat to live in. So ever since i was 16 i lived by myself but i visit my friend every weekend,girls weekend but now i am 18 years of age and it is my last year at this school and i might even move to another country due to my work. I am in a team and i am top learner and i got a schoolership in this cool school i wanted to be in. It was on a friday when Nair jumped on top of me and said" movie day today be on time" well i had practise but after it will come and join you, Nari has a boyfriend now he is a nice guy " i think" well after practise i went to Nari's house and she was not there only D was there and i was shocked that he knows how to cook, well he let me in and while he was cooking o started playing his games on his PS4. He later joined me and he even dished up for us, okay at this moment i was scared for myself i said "what now, you want to kill me" then he laughed at me and damn his laugh makes him hella cute but he only said " eat and enjoy it" the food was very good but he is a player so i should not be shocked. He played games on his PS4 and i was winning felt so good to beat him at his own game, then he said we should play another game i looked at him and said " so that i can beat you at it as well"  until he said "Truth or dare" my heart skiped a beat but i played.
The game went on and on and i finally said "dare" then he said i should kiss him, that was the first time i ever kissed him and i will be lying if say i didn't enjoy it, for pay back i dared him to take off his pants, thinking about it now i shouldn't have done that at all. He asked me to take off every single cloths off expect my underwear( you know when you are young and your parents say do not play with that it will hurt you this was one of does moments for me)  i did i took off my clothes and i asked him to do the same out of nowhere it started raining that was sign for me to go and sleep but i kepted playing. He dared me to fuck him, now i hate lossing so much but i should have gave up but what did i do i kissed him and the rain was coming way heavy that was a sign for us to give up but he carried me into his room and he layed me up and asked me "are you sure about this" i should have said" No get off me now i am going to sleep" what did i do i kissed him. He kissed me and every kiss went to the heart like a bullet, i stared getting cold and he felt that so he pulled us into the sheets he kissed every part of my body it felt like we are one and our body be long together.  This was my first mistake with him, i should learn how to loss some times after the night i passed out i had no power in me but what woke me up was Nari drunk sounds knocking to open up for her. I rushed into her room while she was locked outside then he went to open up for her, i acted as if i was sleeping there the whole time and the good thing about a drunk person is that they won't notice anything a few seconds later my phone went on and he send a text saying " the game is over:("  the whole weekend i tried my best to not see him at all and which i didn't until on Monday at school he came to my locker and gave me a key then he left, but after that he texted me " i got us a new place to play our games" he was trying me but i didn't give up so i said" No need i got my place all to myself pop up" that is when my feelings for him stared driving me crazy. We will some times cut class to be together and that was affecting my practise time and my teachers started to be on my nack and that was stressful. So it was on a Thursday when he came into my flat and he cooked a whole meal for me, now i know that he is not my "boyfriend" but we do what lovers do and the love making is good very good while we were eating, we started talking and i think that was the first time we really talked and it felt good and he even made me laugh it felt good i went to take a shower and manh the hot water around my body and his hands as well felt good so yeah my shower was also our love nets than we went to the bed and we were still wet and he said " let me dry you up by using my body on top of yours" felt good hearing that and yeah his kisses, his hands, his :( you know yeah felt good and i think i am in love with him. Friday came and i was late for my classes and my morning practise as well i got to school a period before lunch time, i was so angry to see him at school and he left me to sleep and while i was going to speak to him something happend some girl came and set on top of him i was so angry to the point of not speaking to him. So i saw Nari and she told me about the school camp that was happining next week Monday i forgot about it but she said i am going with her which i was looking for to be her again, Days went by so fast and i was back to the old me school and practise that week then camp week came and the day of camp Nari told me she is going with her boyfriend so i will go with Deven..... when i heard that my heart really skiped a beat well i was done packing and he came to pick me up and helped me load my things on. The road was long and quite only music was on,listening to summer walker to H.E.R to PJ Saxe yeah good music i tell you. Than it stared raining and i was hungry and he stopped to refill gas and i went out to buy some things for us to eat and he saw a food station next to fuel station and we ordered some food some pizza and chillicheese fries and i was craving them, the rain stared getting heavy and we couldn't drive any more so we waited for the rain to stop while listening to music and "tonight" by summer walker started playing and i started sing and he laughed at me cause i had some cheese on my face and he removed it then he kissed me and his kisses are perfect to me and i was not in a good  posion but we moved to the back while that song was on repeat and i was on top of him and we took a blanket to warm our bodies; his hands all over me and feeling me manh, his kisses and all but some how i always become the meal so yeah we went on and on then we started eating and i passed out and he warmed me up one of things i love about him is his cuddling ways and he loves that. A sunset woke me up and he hold me down to relax but we had to start moving to get to the camp side but we got there in time and i got in time for practise and all my teachers were happy about it but i didn't get a room so i had to stay with someone and my thing were in D's tent after my practise i had to go to a burn fire party which was fun until it started raining. So i ended up in D's hands we went to his tent and he changed my clothes and dressed me with his T-shirt and he kissed on the lips and hugged me and said "I LOVE YOU" i looked at him and gave him a kiss and said it back "I LOVE YOU TOO DEADASS" then i went to sleep.  In the morning i went to practise and i got a room and i moved my things to that room.
The whole week i didn't see D cause i was busy with practise and i went back with my team. When i came back i wanted to see D so i went to his home and i had the key to get in cause i used to live there so i missed him a lot so i got to his home and he was acting weird and something told me that something is going on but i just wanted to be with him. So he went to pour me some drink and his phone went on so i took it and i saw a text " babe come up i am wait for you"
From that text i stared reading it all this and guy was flirting with this girl very hard and that girl lives 6 houses from his and i knew her from church so all this time i was with him he was flirting with her hard and they are dating, he broke my heart so i went up to his room and there she was on his bed and she was looking at me.
I came down and i gave him his phone and i asked "what is going on....."
He looked at me and he said "sorry, well she is nothing to me we started talking two weeks ago"
Then i go " are you dating her"
He said "Yes"
From that "Yes" my heart broke for real
I went out and started running non stop just running and i got a taxi to take me home, i didn't even want a friendship with him at all cause he broke my heart and it was the worst pain ever so i put my whole working time on my games and get that schoolership well lucky me i got it and it felt good to be far away from him but i had to do an heath check and i had to have a new one so that week i went to my school doctor and get checked, well my low blood pressure is not at risk at all but they are hearing two heart beats and she looked at me and said "you are pregnant"