Our love behind the door

Mistakes

The other night what we did was perfect i felt his heart again and his lips like they belong to me and every piece of him was mine again, it felt good but why bad things always feel good?
Why did i enjoy it i mean it is bad enough that he said he doesn't see me as his wife but to cheat with him or his girl that is under the bus i mean he is my weakness from the last day i saw him for real like look at him i swear it felt like my heart was jumping out of me and i learned a lot of thing by him mostly sexually but also how to play some games thinking about it our thing was started by a game even our first kiss was created by a game but we been there for each other i mean we have a child and he never asked me he just knew that the baby is his, am i that sweet to the point he knows that he is my last?
The are days i wish i never played that game with him i mean non of this will be happining right......well after that night our love making he never changed at all i felt like he acted like nothing happend between us and that was freaking me out i know he loves me deadass that is one thing that will never change between us but if he is acting like this what do we call this??
The whole week the was acting like nothing happend up until he told me that this weekend his girl is coming
Okay at this moment i should be shocking the life out of him right....like it is the right thing to do i mean you made love to me but you are busy with your relationship while you cheated
Well i should know better at this moment i mean he told me like he doesn't see me being his wife that is why he cheated on me, love is not for every one i guess i should start counting myself on that part.
The weekend came and i started feeling sick very sick i think it is flu and the following week it was Pono's birthday my baby is turning one.

So remember i told you that D told me that his girl is coming this weekend well the plan was i won't see him the whole weekend from Friday cause he will be with his girl i think a hotel i have no idea but my body has another plan cause i started being sick from the day he told me and on Friday i was worse so he cancelled his plans to take care of me and look after him, i was not well at all so he took Pono to Nari to take care of her so that she doesn't get sick cause her birthday is the following week so we want her good all the way.
I was sick my fever was high and i was coughing cats and dogs i tell you i was not good the whole Friday i was in bed i was in my room but he did the rest
He cleaned and cooked for me also he gave me a bath, okay i know he is my weakness everything about him is just a weakness and i know i should not allow him to see me not dressed but he was taking care of me and i know i can give myself a bath but i just wanted him to hold me i know.......  i know.....i know bad idea but i can not help myself it is the love i have for him.
So Friday he was in my room with me just feeding me and giving me medicine and all
He made soup which was hell'a good i must say then taccos like wow does taccos are the best i ever had then he cuddled me to sleep which was easy cause smelling him is my drug so i was high, high on my addication so at this point i know things look bad i mean most of you might say "  girl move out" but i can't i love living him so much i can not  i mean things are weird we have a child together but we are not dating and we are living together and we only fucked once ever since the baby and i still am in love with him all the way i tell and i do not know about him, manh i want him so bad but........ but nothing.
Morning came which is Saturday
I woke up and he was next to me like very close so i move to go to the toilet and washed my face and brushed my teeth then went to kichen to make breakfast for the both of us than that was our morning in the afternoon we planned a movie night so we were looking for movies to watch out Top 5 each then i took my night shower so did he and i made pop corns for us and pizza came with chilli cheese fries than we watched the first movie ( ABOUT LAST NIGHT)  i love that movie so much aftet that we watched ( LOVE AND BASKETBALL) during the movie he was looking at me like he wants to ask me something so i said it " ask me and stop freaking me out"
"Okay why do you like this kinda of movies"
" cause it is about love and i love love"
Then he smiled...... okay at this moment i should have moved or do some thing but what did i do i?
I stayed
Then he pulled me closer and said next to my ear " you mean our love"
My weakness he knows me well so i kissed him and said " finally you are getting it"
One kiss is all it takes all the time
We kiss which the movie was on
He up zipped my Pj and i was his again the way he looks at me or my body he looks at me like i am art then he kissed all over my body every single part of it
Then he undressed and he asked that question agan " are you sure" and of cause i kissed him i really should move out so yeah we made love again
Our movie night turned into us making a movie,  i swear this guy knows my body like he studied it at school like he had a lesson of my body  it is crazy how he drives my body wild but what can i say at this point
I fell asleep so did he and his phone went off then i heard him saying " Hi baby"
Hiiii.......baby........ then he goes on and say
" nothing just taking care of HER and i was sleeping"
I do not cry but at that moment i was crying