Our love behind the door

What are doing my love?

As i am listening to Q telling his story of how he lost Amber over a hook up it is breaking so what did he do to his heart was it all for fun or a good thing we never know but do you ever ask your self questions like:
Why her?
Why me?
Just the why only
But boys or guys do you ever think of the other person before cheating i mean the good person
Who visits you when they are broke
Who hugs you when they are down
Who gives you all their time while they should be studying or sleeping
Do you think about them
I mean boys always say "i am a boy it what we do" but do you ever think for yourself and just do good i mean D cheated on me and then i was pregnant and just think about it if he didn't cheat how happy will i be with him by my side now but he has Summer right i am just his "baby mama" and i never thought i will be a "baby mama" to the guy i hate but love. We have good memories together but he doesn't want me any ways back to Q so this guy is a good guy just that he has issues that is all but any ways we spend a lot of time together a lot of it i tell you so yeah i am always with him at school and his friends as well but he has never been in my place or seen my baby at all i just want to keep that to me but i am training and i am not pregnant this time so yeah and No me and D  do not fuck with the "glove on" meaning No Condom so yeah i am that crazy about him wow time goes by so fast and i am done writing and we are on school holidays and yess i still see Q and  no Devanter doesn't know about Q  i mean why should he but during this holidays i am going to see my mother in London in her new house and all so yeah and Pono doesn't see more of her granparents at all but yeah and D already knows but i can not invite him or should i??
Okay......i am inviting him than
So i told him and the following week we are going so he booked everything for us all i had to do was buy cloths for us and my mother has 3 house in one yard so she gave us one of her houses to stay in it.
So yeah the week came Nari couldn't come she is going away with her boyfriend so yeah just the three of us, so we got there and it was cold winter very cold
We got to my mother's place and to the house she gave us
We unpacked and i fell asleep with Pono and D in the same bed.
In the morning we unpacked and they called us for breakfast so my step father took off work to spend time with us and it was nice
So we had breakfast; Lunch and dinner all week long but on Friday my step father took us out to eat and it was nice
Than saturday came my mother's birthday and they were having a party i had no classic clothing to wear so as D and Pono but they took us shopping and all the party was starting at 19:00 so make -up came and hair sylists as well so D got a hair cut and they did my hair so as baby Pono
So baby Pono was wearing a long baby doll purple dress looking cute while i wore a blue a navry blue dress long and classic and diamonds on top of it so yeah it was the dream dress and for D i haven't seen him yet.
So the party started and i was started being ready at 20:00 cause i had to put Pono to sleep and i couldn't leave her alone
So i went out late and when i did all i saw was Devater looking sexy in a navry blue suit and that hair cut took my breath away so he came to help me down and he smiled that is his way to tell me i look beautiful i swear the whole night my eyes were on him like he was the only man who stole my eyes and i love him so do you blame me, what can i do love makes people do crazy things
So i got introduced to my step brothers and sisters and yeah it was fine but i started being weird about Pono so i went to check on her and there he was looking at our baby he was sitting next to her in my room than he saw me and came to sit next to him we started talking about Pono and how proud we are as parents and i think after he moved out this is the longest time we are spending together and it felt good we talked about my new family and all which i felt weird about it but yeah that is my life. So we talked about his a little bit and after that i moved Pono from the noise the other side of my bed and while i was doing that he started laughing at me so sweet and some how i felt like i want to take off my dress which i did and he gave me his jacket and it felt good wearing something that smells like him and it was nice i miss his smell i can tell you so we were sitting and talking about it all some how we eaded up talking about our sexual life which i can tell you was wild and romantic but that is the past and while we were talking he pulled me for a kiss....
Manh why this again?