The past few weeks have been very chilled. I decided that I was going to focus on myself. Yes, I still have feelings for them. I'm trying to lose them and I'm getting there. It's really hard though.
Having to see them everyday frustrates me. I'm glad Ora still avoids me. Jabu and I greet each other whenever we meet. We can barely hold a conversation.
Whenever I see Mpumi, I walk the opposite direction. I avoid her at all costs. What happened between me and her was just... I don't know. It was special. It was really special.
Fortune and I are on good terms. Well, she definitely hates me, but she tolerates me. When I lock eyes with her, she looks away quickly. I don't know if she still has feelings for me or not.
Let's talk about Lesego. Wow. We spend a lot of time together. I believe that I've lost feelings for her. Well, that's what I like to think.
I love Lea. But she's my best friend. I don't think that i like her like that. I was just being delusional.
I definitely have feelings for Mayra. It's really shitty. She a really nice person. She's always really kind to me. We've made out a few time, and all fucked. I like how she treats me.
I've grown closer to Gundo and Bonolo. They are such crackheads, I love them so much. I'm so free and comfortable around them. It's weird, but it feels so good.
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Today was a very cold morning. I was looking for a warm sweater when I stumbled upon Jabu's hoodie. I remember that I had packed it away.
I take Jabu's hoodie and bring it up to my nose. The smell shoot shivers through my body. Memories of how he took my innocence flooded my mind. Gosh, that boy was something else.
"Hey, you good?" Lesedi asked me. I dropped the hoodie and turned around to see her with Mpumi. "Hey Maya," Mpumi said. I haven't spoken to this girl in weeks. I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I just froze.
"Maya," Lesedi said. "Hi," I replied. Did I just say hi? Out of all things, I choose to say hi? Wow Maya. Just wow.
"Oh shit. I forgot my iPad in my locker. I'll be back, Mpumi," Lesedi said and ran out of the room. Great. Now I'm left with Mpumi.
"You look good," she said. "Thank you," I replied. I finally found a sweater. I pulled it over my head and looked into the mirror. Mpumi's eyes were on my body and I didn't feel uncomfortable.
"Is everything okay?" I asked her. "No. Yes," she replied. "No?" I ask. "I miss you," she said. Before I could reply, Lesedi walked in. "Am I disturbing something?" she asked. "No uhm... I was just about to leave," I said. I grabbed my keys, phone and side hand bag before leaving the dorm.
She misses me? Why is she only telling me now? Is she lying to me? Does she really miss me? No Maya. Stop thinking about it. Think about how Mayra fucks you and makes you call her daddy.
Today, me, Gundo and Bonolo are going out. We plan on shopping, going to the movies and having lunch. As well as dinner, if we stay for long.
Gundo wore black leggings with a baggy black hoodie. Her figure was hidden but she still looked hot. Bonolo wore a pair of blue denim jeans and a white hoodie. She looked like a teenager. I wore a pair of black denim jeans and a deep red sweater. I tucked the sweater in and wore a thick black belt.
We were waiting in the queue at the cinema and I heard a familiar voice. Kay-Line. Is this really her? "Kay?" I say. "Maya?" she replies. She was with another girl. A very attractive girl.
"You've grown so much, baby," I said. She's really grown. I mean, the last time I saw her was four years back. We never lost contact though.
"This is my girlfriend, Oreneile," she says. I smile and pull her girlfriend in for a hug. "Maya," I say. She smiles back and greets my friends. I haven't told Kay about my love and sex life yet. I think that I'll just tell her today.
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