Memories

Ch. 21 - Back To You

Y/N's P.O.V.

Y/N had just left the dorms, his mind racing, as he could feel his heart shattering. He felt so confused, and his emotions were pulling him in all kinds of directions. He knew he had feelings for Jungkook, it was obvious now; but he also have feelings for Soobin as well. 

He wanted to talk to someone but he couldn't, everyone he knew would be so biased that their opinions would not even matter. If he talked to Taehyung, he would tell him to forget Jungkook, and go for Soobin, and the same thing would go for his members. In the other hand the other BTS members would tell him to give Jungkook a chance because they have history. 

It was so easy for Y/N to read all of them, he needed someone to talk to, but who. He was so frustrated with himself until he stopped at a tarot reading store. "Maybe..." Y/N mumbled as he slowly walked into the mystical store. 

"Hello. Welcome, how may I help you today ?" A cheerful lady greeted Y/N. 

"Ah yes, I would like a reading" Y/N mumbled quietly 

"Sure, follow me, my name is Jina, nice to meet you.... Y/N" She smiled cheerfully 

Y/N was taken back as he followed Jina to her table. "H-How did you know my name?" Y/N asked shocked

"Magic" Jina said as he opened her eyes wide, then bursting into laughter "Just kidding love, you are part of the new boy group, Tomorrow by Together right?" She asked as she shuffled her cards. Y/N just let out a small sigh of relief, he was truly scared for a second 

"So before we pick the card, I want you to focus on your question, and say it out loud for me" Jina explained as he placed her cards down on the table 

"I want to know if I'm making the right choice by going after my ex" Y/N spoke clearly, as he tried to focus on the question. 

"Okay, now whiled focused I want you to pick three cards first" She said smiling as she looked at Y/N 

"Okay" Y/N closed his eyes and nodded; stretching his arm out, slowly picking up one card. Then a second one, and a third one. He opened up his eyes and looked down at the cards he got. The lovers, The tower, and The Wheel Of Fortune. 

Jina looks at the cards intensely, as if she was trying to figure out the hidden message within the card. "Interesting..." She mumbled before looking up at Y/N "Experiences are an asset, but sometimes those memories come with pain. These cards evoke some old wounds from your past, and represent a dark period in your existence" Jina began to speak, and those words made Y/N shiver. It was quite accurate, in his mind.  

The experiences he had with Jungkook after he lost his memories were sweet, but those memories will always haunt him, and hurt him because it was all based on lies. Besides the bullying he went through with Jungkook, even though he did all that, his emotions still said to give him a chance, even if he was a major asshole 

"Those painful memories are now behind you, but they have left you wounded, and for a lack of a better word I'd say traumatized. But you have learned to live with these memories, wounds and the absence of someone special" Jina said as she looked deeply into Y/N's eyes "You have doubts in your head, which is why you came here today. You have a big obstacle to overcome, and you will; but you have to trust yourself. You have an internal battle, your brains versus your heart. You love two people very dearly, and it is quite obvious, but which one do you love the most" Jina smiled a little at Y/N, who looked obviously distressed "And now, I have an advice of my own.... You are going through a difficult period, in which some past problems are resurfacing. I can feel that feeling of doubt and loneliness you have, which is stopping you from enjoying your life. There is one particular issue you have with a person in your life who is really disappointing you. While it is true that in the past you have been tolerant and understanding, today you have the impression that things have gone too far and you need some distance; but the love you have for them is stopping you....I think in my personal opinion, give him a chance... b-" Jina was cut off before finishing her sentence by Y/N standing up. He quickly stood up and smiled widely, he could feel his emotions finally coming all together. He finally understood himself, and knew what he needed. "Thank you so much ! I know what I have to do !" Y/N mumbled as he pulled Jina into a tight hug. He quickly pulled all the money out of his wallet and gave it to Jina before running out of the door. 

Jina stood there confused, but also worried since she didn't finished her sentence "Give him a chance, but before you do so you need to love yourself...Otherwise things will turn out for the worse" She tried to yell, but Y/N was already gone. 

----Timeskip----

Y/N was now standing outside the door of BTS's dorms. He didn't know how to go about this, but he knew now that he wanted to Jungkook. He also knew he'd have to talk to Soobin as well, but right now, this instance Jungkook was his priority. He had to tell him now, before Jungkook decides to let go of Y/N. 

While he was standing right there, trying to come up with the right words the door opened up revealing Jungkook. Y/N stood there frozen for a few seconds before lunging forward and hugging Jungkook. "I choose you" Y/N mumbled as he tightened his grip onto Jungkook's body.

"I made up my mind... I want to give us a chance...I want to know the Jungkook that I met while I was at the hospital" Y/N mumbled as tears streamed down his face 

Jungkook started chuckling, as he hugged Y/N tightly "You made me wait long enough"