Memories

Ch. 9 - Clumsy

Jungkook's P.O.V. 

As Jungkook typed that long last message he couldn't help but cry. It was as if he was being stabbed for every word he typed. He finally put his pride down, and was genuine, maybe for the first time on his life. 

After he sent the message, he got up and grabbed a notebook and started to write down lyrics. "I know you said you had a fragile heart"

"I never meant to break it all apart" 

As hour passed, Jungkook felt lifeless. He refused to leave his room, or talk to anyone. He felt broken, and even more when he didn't hear from (Y/N). 

"But I'm the bull in your china shop"

Suddenly the sound of the rain hitting the windows was interrupted by a know on the door. Jungkook however ignored it. "Jungkook ! (Y/N) has been in an accident! He was hit by a truck!" Jungkook's mom shouted from the other side .

"I trip and fall and find it hard to stop" 

Jungkook immediately got up. His eyes started to fill with tears again. "This is my fault, I caused this, I'm a fuck up" He cried as he ran out of his room, rushing down the stairs and running outside. 

The cold rain touching his skin, hiding the tears that were streaming down his face.He stood there for a second before rushing to the hospital.

"It's a delicate dance" 

Jungkook continued to run towards the nearest hospital, his minded flooded with worry and dread about (Y/N). How bad could this accident had been?

As he was about to reach the hospital he realized he didn't even know if (Y/N) was there. He stopped in the middle of the sidewalk and grabbed his phone and started to call his mom. Every ring to him felt like a lifetime 

"We were taking a chance" 

After a couple seconds his mom answered "Jungkook ! Where are you ? We are heading to the hospital! he is in the ER. The one near the house" His mom shouted, but was cut off by Jungkook hanging up the phone. That's all he needed to know. 

He then continued to run towards the hospital. His heart beating like never before. The memories of (Y/N), how he could've treated him better, how he could've found another way to show him he had an attraction to him. 

"I've always had two left feet in love" 

How he made (Y/N)'s life hell, because Jungkook thought he turned him gay. He had never liked a guy before, until he met (Y/N). 

He let out a small sigh as he saw the hospital appearing in the distance. Would (Y/N) even want to see him once he wakes up? 

No it doesn't matter, Jungkook loved him now, and he wanted to show him that he had changed. "(Y/N) I love you..." He cried as he rushed past the entrance of the hospital. As he rushed inside he headed towards the right wing, where the ER was. 

He then was pushed aside by nurses carrying a unconscious body stained in blood. It was (Y/N)'s body. His arm was obviously broken, his face filled with scratches and wounds. His leg, broken as well. 

"But I went and screwed it up" 

"(Y/N)!" Jungkook screamed while crying trying to rush to him, but was stopped by security. Jungkook felt so helpless, and so guilty. He continued to try to push pass the security guards, looking like maniac. Screaming, crying, flailing his arms, doing everything in his power to get close to (Y/N). 

It took some effort but the security guards finally got him to call down, and told him he could wait in the waiting area along with his family. Jungkook slowly walked down to the nearest chair, feeling completely defeated. 

"I never meant to make you fall apart, but when I fall in love I get clumsy" Jungkook mumbled as he broke down into tears once more

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Quick Note: 

This chapter was inspired by the song Clumsy by Sam Tsui. 

Also sorry everyone for not updating, ill try to be more consistent from now on. Hope you enjoy this quick chapter