Memories

Ch. 19 - I Adore You

A few days had passed since the incident. Namjoon had found Y/N and Jungkook hugging not long after Y/N had found Jungkook. They were both brought to the hospital, and checked up. Jungkook had a fever, and had to stay in the hospital. Y/N was fine, so he was let go. Taehyung brought him back to the dorms, to a very worried Soobin. 

Soobin was not happy to hear that Y/N had gone out of his way to help Jungkook. He didn't have anything against him, but he was jealous, they had some sort of history before. So he stopped speaking to Y/N for a few days, to calm himself down. However that didn't last long because Y/N ended up getting sick. 

Y/N's P.O.V. 

"This is what you get for doing that" Soobin spoke up as he walked into Y/N's room with a warm bowl of chicken noddle soup. He slowly placed the bowl on the desk, and helped Y/N get up. Y/N was quiet, he understood why the other was upset. He had every right to, but he was also upset that Soobin hadn't had talked to him until he had passed out at practice from his illness. 

"Hyung.. I'm sorry" Y/N spoke softly, his voice cracking a little at the end of his sentence. He felt bad, truly, but he also wanted some sort of closure with Jungkook, however he could not let Soobin know this. At least... not for now.

"Don't worry about it, after all, you with me after all so I shouldn't be too jealous !" Soobin smiled happily. This caused Y/N's heart to sting a little, he felt like he was playing with Soobin's heart. He didn't want to do that, he had real feeling for him.... but Jungkook showing up out of nowhere made things so complicated for him. 

Y/N just smiled in response, sitting down on his chair. He was about to reach out for the spoon, but Soobin beat him to it. He couldn't help but smile, this wasn't the first time he had done this. He just shook his head softly, closed his eyes and opened his eyes. Soon he was fed by his boyfriend, who started singing right after the first spoon. 

"Look in my eyes can't you see my heartbeat? Swirling everything I go" Soobin sang happily, smiling widely from ear to ear. Y/N quickly chewed and swallowed his food, smiling at Soobin. He remembered the first time he heard that song. He was watching a drama, and Soobin had walked into his room right when Y/N was crying. Soobin was obviously worried, so his first instinct was to comfort Y/N.

Y/N chuckled at the memory as he looked at Soobin "Look in my eyes, I will be next to you , You let me be on the line" Y/N sang as he leaned closer, and softly rubbed Soobin's cheek, causing the older to blush. Soobin smiled happily as he closed his eyes at the touch of Y/N's soft hands. 

Jungkook's P.O.V. 

Jungkook was now finally back at the dorms. He was roommates with Taehyung once more, and he had been readmitted as a member of BTS. Everything was falling back in place for him, everything but one thing .... Y/N. His heart was still aching for the younger, and he craved his touch again. 

He knew that there was something there still, he knew it. Specially after what had just happened in the field. The way that Y/N had held him, and touched his face. He knew his feelings were returned to an extent. He was happy, so happy. The whole time he was sick, he was smiling like an idiot. Everyone was happy for him, well everyone but Jimin and Taehyung. Those two still seem to hold everything against him, and he didn't blame them. He wasn't the best friend he could've been. 

Jungkook was laying down, on his back, resting his head on his hands as he continued to smile. He was interrupted by Taehyung entering the room, and along with Taehyung, he could hear Y/N's voice on his phone singing. 'Was he talking to Y/N... his voice is angelic to him' 

"Tae, is that Y/N? Are you talking to him?" Jungkook asked softly as he sat up

Taehyung let out a sigh as he turned around "No, it's just a video of him singing" Taehyung answered coldly. 

"C-Can i see?" Jungkook asked again, his curiosity getting the best of him. 

Taehyung's eyes suddenly widened, and smiled. The smile wasn't friendly, there was a motive behind, and Jungkook was scared "Sure, here" Taehyung answered, handing the younger his phone. 

Jungkook gulped as he had Taehyung's phone on his hand, but without thinking twice he pressed play. Suddenly the video started. It was Y/N, but Soobin was there too. Jungkook's eyes widened seeing the two singing together, then the way Y/N leaned to touch Soobin's cheek. It was so loving, it was obvious he cared, and Jungkook was heartbroken. 

He quickly looked away, and gave the phone back. "Now you can see how happy he is.... So just leave the two alone" Taehyung mumbled before walking out of the room. 

Jungkook felt destroyed once more, he thought he had a chance, and that was honestly the most naive thing he had done in so long. Of course he wouldn't, why would he... 

He quickly reached out for his phone and typed in Y/N's phone number that Namjoon had given to him after hours of begging. Then he started writing his last message to the younger 

"This is how it ends..Never meant to hurt you. I'm a pretty mess, and I don't deserve you. I ran out of time and second chances....Sorry I couldn't build your white picket fences.... And I only got myself to blame" He quickly typed his message, tears dripping down to his cheek. He could feel his heart breaking with each word, but this was for the better right? If you truly love someone you have know when to let it go, and maybe now was truly the time to let it all go and let Y/N be free. 

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