I explained to Van what actually happened recently and he feels sorry and down, too. Naiintindihan niya ako kahit na nasasaktan siya habang hinanap ako nang hinanap.
He also told me na nagulat siya kanina kasi nakita na niya ako and he wanted me to introduce me properly to Jay and Priscilla pero sabi niya mas importante pa daw na mas makakausap ko siya at mahawakan niya na ulit ako.
And that ended my overthinking since he just totally told me na Priscilla doesn't matter to him anymore. They just had a dinner together since it has been 5 years since Van left Philippines.
But there's one thing that I can never forget na sinabi niya.
"Priscilla taught me how to patient. I never did before. Pero when I found you and lost you again and again? Everything makes sense. I think everything in the past is like a road, a broken road but will actually leads me to you. Home." He said. "I may have never told you before, but Priscilla... I don't love her anymore. Natakot ako kanina kasi baka isipin mo, nagloko ako and I am afraid that you will lost your trust to me and I wouldn't want that, baby."
I frowned.
"You mean everything to me. Gagawin ko ang lahat at sa ano mang paraan na mamahalin ka nang sobra sobra." Sabi niya.
He kissed me again.
Napayakap ako sa kanya para mas lumalim ang halik naming dalawa.
"I am so sorry about your grandparents."
I was totally crying when I shared to him what happened to Lola and Lolo.
At the moment, he is also crying with me too.
"Why are you crying?" I asked him.
"I feel you. The loss." Sabi niya.
"What do you mean?"
"I already lost family, Angel. At alam ko kung gaano kasakit iyon." Sabi niya.
"Im sorry."
"No, its okay." He whispered.
He hugged me one last time bago niya akong pilitin na umalis na kami sa ilalim ng ulan.
Pero I insisted on kissing him first.
It was a soft and flawless kiss.
A perfect kiss.
An unforgiving kiss when you finally saw someone you miss.
A torrid and passionate kiss under the rain with our emotions tied up. I fall in love with him again and again.
Van took me to his place.
I realized that Van has a lot of house. May sarili siyang bahay sa pilipinas at meron din sa Australia. So is in Canada.
He made me wear his clothes and it smells like him.
Napahiga ako sa kama matapos akong maligo at magbihis.
Sa ngayon, nasa bathroom pa siya.
I decided to roam around.
Naglalakad at naglalakad ako sa loon ng kwarto niya.
Hindi masyadong marami ang gamit niya since 5 years na siyang hindi nakauwi sa pinas. Pero to see his old pictures, it made me feel better. Napangiti ako nang makaramdam ako nang yakap mula sa likoran ko. He is still wearing towel and his topless.
Iniharap niya ako sa kanya.
Hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko at napapikit ako habang ginagawa niya iyon. Niraramdam lang ang bawat hawak niya.
"Mahal kita."
"I love you too." I said. He was about to kiss me. "I think my mom is sick worried right now. Our flight is tomorrow. Back to Australia."
He nodded.
"I'll just catch up, my Angel, okay?" He said and kissed my ears. "I know you're tired, just wait and I'll wear my clothes, okay?"
I nodded.
Pinapanuod kong nagbibihis si Van.
"Mom knew you were my boyfriend." Sabi ko.
He smiled. "Too late for me to ask for her permission then?" He said at napangiti ako.
Napangiti nalang ako kasi parang nawawalan na ako nang mabigat na pakiramdam sa dibdib.
Atleast ngayon, tapos na lahat ng problema at sakit.
And the only thing that's left now is just my Van Mentius and I.
Everyone else doesn't really matter.
The most important thing is... our relationship has gone stronger and matured. Also clear as crystal.
No hard feelings.
No hidden feelings.
Just truth.
And Chances.
My Mom and I went back to Australia the day after tomorrow.
Van and Mom already talked and in split second Mommy was so happy for us. Parang matagal na niyang ginusto na magiging kami ni Van and I think that is the most hilarious thing I have ever known right now.
1 year has passed and I am literally having a visitor at home 24/7.
A man who cooks for me.
A man who take good care of me.
A man who is afraid of blood.
A man with dark past but has now become a better person.
Cuddling every night.
Making love anytime.
All I wanted is him.
Just him for the rest of my life.
He made me became his queen.
Treating me like his everything.
Flowers everytime he will visit me at home.
Netflix and chill when I'll go visit him.
Those 10 boxes of condoms has now finally running out.
I cant help but smile right now.
So this is what it feels like when you stop observing and just living it.
My life is complete.
I may have lost the one I loved but I found someone to settle with.
Van Mentius, I love you so much.
BINABASA MO ANG
Van Mentius Lim: My Pain (Completed)
Romance"My Pain is you, Van Mentius." - Angel Horfelia The story of "My Pain" revolves around Van Mentius Lim and his journey to finding love and acceptance. Van, tired of playing games and having ill-fated relationships, finally meets a girl who changes...
