When I woke up, Van wasnt there anymore. He left note at my side table and I feel like we are getting more and more old school.
When I went out of my room, nagulat nalang ako sa nakita ko.
Mom was crying while holding a phone and I figured that she was talking with someone.
Umiiyak siya habang napakagat sa finger nails niya. I knew something was bad happening. May baggage nang nakahanda sa sala. My baggage and hers.
"Mom? What- what's going on? Are you okay?" I asked.
She sobbed.
Niyakap niya ako kaagad. She is still in her uniform and I think this is happening so fast na kakagising ko lang at mayroong nangyayari nang hindi maganda.
"They're gone." Sabi ni Mommy.
"What?" I asked.
She cried again and again.
"Lolo and Lola."
Para akong nabingi sa narinig ko.
No.
No. No. No.
And the next thing I knew, Mom and I are already at the airport. I fall silent throughout the travel. Naiisip ko yung mga memories before. Memories na hinding-hindi mapapantayan sa kung sino mang-tao.
Lolo and Lola raised me.
Losing them is losing a life, too.
Nakarating kami sa Philippines.
Eyes are heavy, mind's are full, and heart is breaking. Pagdating namin sa bahay, napaiyak ako ng todo when I saw their kabaong. Both of them.
Losing both of them!
Both of them!
Mom's voice echoed around the room while I continuously sobbing hugging Lolo and Lola's picture frame.
"Nadulas Lola niyo and nabagok ang ulo niya sa sahig. Thats how we lost her. Pero when Lolo saw and realized she is gone, bigla siyang inatake ng puso. And that's how we lost them both." Sabi nung katulong na nag-aalaga nila Lolo at Lola dito sa bahay.
Every night hindi ako natutulog and I just by their side. Ayokong umalis. Kasi aside sa namimiss ko sila ay alam ko rin na namimiss din nila ako. Hindi lang nila masabi kasi kagustuhan rin nila na makasama ko na si Mommy sa Australia.
They have me growing up.
And to grow up with Grandmother and Grandfather is the best thing ever.
Lola taught me beinf careful with decisions. Very smart and practical. And a very forgiving heart. Tinuro niya sa akin iyon sa pamamagitan ng pagpapakita niya sa akin nun.
Lolo taught me patience and being observant. I have it from him. He is always consistent of his decisions. He is very introvert sometimes but even him told me that I should get a life in Australia.
Napaiyak ako.
It's been a week now since the funeral. Pero ngayon? Palagi pa din akong pumupunta sa grave nila. I just dont want to leave again. Masakit pala.
Masakit pala mawalan ng mahal sa buhay. At hindi mo na sila makikita pa muli.
Somehow, I thought adulting is hard. Kasi mas maiintindihan mo kung bakit may mawawala at may dadating.
Sobrang bata ko pa noong nawalan ako ng ama. Pero malaki na ako ngayon, and to see those people who shaped me to become someone I am now ay mas masakit pa sa lahat ng mga sakit.
I lost my 2 diamonds and I will never ever forget about them. Ever.
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